Patricia,
    Like everyone else on this site, I've prayed for you.
Facing eventual sickness is common to all of us.
Therefore we can relate to some degree to the emotions that you expressed.
Realizing that I would, like Hezekiah, turn my face to the wall and pray:

II Kings 20:2 Then he turned his face to the wall, and prayed unto the LORD

It goes on to say that he wept sore.
I would weep, so may the LORD grant us tears on your behalf.
Therefore, in such a manner I must pray for you.