Randy, dear brother, you're not the only one who has gotten it wrong.  Don't be so hard on yourself.  You're right; someday, someone is going to get it right.  Maybe if we say each day the Rapture is going to happen TODAY, then we'll always be right!  LOL!  

You did what you felt was right, and you tried to get confirmation to your thoughts.  Don't feel so bad; we've all done it somehow, maybe not in public, but we have all done this, even if we don't want to admit it.  What is "this?"  Get excited about a date, watch harder at some times than others, pray harder at some times than others.  

Randy, we want the Rapture so badly.  I'm tired, Brother.  Tired of fighting sin in this world.  Sometimes, yes, I admit, tired of watching.

But we'll keep doing it, because that's what WATCHERS do...watch and listen and keep on through the power of Jesus.

Be encouraged, Brother.  We all still love you!