Hi John and Doves,

I am a little frightened. I am sure I am amongst the many. We live in very precarious times. I was thinking - while watching the rainy drizzle outside my kitchen window, this morning.....what if our LORD does not return soon? What if I really have to descend into full blown nervous breakdown? What if my money cannot survive this crisis? I have not prepped. I have not prepped at all. I'm not 18 years old any longer but neither am I anciently decrepit. Am I supposed to be doing anything more?

I have these moments as I am sure you all do. It takes prayer to bring me back down to earth. My main angst lies in waiting for our LORD Jesus. It gives me heartburn. It makes me cry. It makes me snappy... and then I cry again. Oy vey .... no-one pretended that it was ever going to be easy. I am forever seeking forgiveness for being impatient. I scroll through YT - hoping that someone out there has a magical formula as to when our LORD is coming back. In between, I try to live in this reality. Aaaaaaarrrrrgggghhhh.

We need to hang on. Letting no-one steal our crown. The fact is that even if our LORD only comes back in 10 years time - I cannot give Him up. There is no alternative to Jesus. Not for people who desperately desire to frolic in purity. Relish the realm that is totally free of evil. Blossom and grow in the pure presence of our LORD. Worship Him in fullness - in spirit and in truth. With zero sin attached to our miserable selves. To GIVE BACK the joy, worship and glory that our LORD God fully deserves. I want Almighty God to be happy and joyous that He made me. I want to bring joy to His heart. I want and need His approval. For Him to say - "You make ME happy".

Almighty God has given me so much grace. I want to be with Him.

Blessing to all