Dear Doves,
I want to sincerely thank those of you who have written very encouraging posts over the last several days on Fivedoves. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am fine. I was not fine on Tuesday of this week, but the Lord helped me.

On Tuesday, I had a complete loss of faith. I denied the Lord and said unspeakable things against Him. I said them out loud to my husband as I wept. I told Him that I would never do such a thing to one of my children and yet He claims to love me and He puts me through this. On Tuesday night, I asked God to do one of three things to me:
1. Kill me that night.
2. Rapture me that night.
3. Give me understanding of all the things He had spoken to me over the last several weeks.

He chose option #3. The revelation came immediately after I asked Him for it. If we are faithless, He will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself. For all eternity I will have to live with the knowledge that I completely turned from Him, just as Peter denied Him 3 times. I even said such terrible things as I publicly renounce my faith in Jesus Christ and I hate Him and I will never trust Him again. The pain that my heart felt was greater than any pain I have ever felt before. I had felt my heart healing for the last 6 weeks, but on Tuesday, it felt like every single stitch that the Lord had put in my heart was ripped away and my heart began to gush blood like never before. It was literally a physical feeling. I even wondered if perhaps I might be having a heart attack.

I know that many of you will not believe anything I say anymore, but I hope you will still read this, and maybe the Lord will confirm to you that I am telling the truth. The Lord has shown me so many things over the last 36 hours, but I do not feel free to share them at this time and will wait for His leading as to what to do with what He has revealed to me. But I would like to share a couple of things that He spoke to me on Tuesday night.

1. He said that He never told me the revelation was complete, only that it was the final revelation. He said that when He began to reveal these things to me in late August and early Sept, that it was the beginning of the final revelation, not the complete revelation. When I had heard Him say that it was the final revelation, in my mind, that meant that the revelation was complete and that is all that my mind remembered Him saying to me. But, in actuality, He said that He never used the word complete, only the word final.

2. He told me that I had done exactly what He had shown me to do and I had done nothing wrong. This was all a part of the purification process and that He knew it was painful, but He also knew what it felt to be forsaken. He said that losing a loved one is very painful, but that is a trial; what I have gone through is a test, and is even more difficult than a trial because He puts me in these situations where I feel betrayed and deceived by Him to see if I will still trust Him even when nothing makes sense and it even seems that He has lied to me. And after I scream and cry and have my temper tantrum because of the intense pain I feel, He is able to heal my heart and continue with the revelation and purification process.

These are the only 2 things I feel that the Lord would have me share with all of you at this time. I mostly just wanted to let you all know that I am OK and for you not to worry about me. I appreciate those of you who have prayed for me during this difficult test. I do hope the Lord used some of the things I wrote to cause people to turn to Him and seek Him more, although my main motivation was to help those left behind to see how all of these things were prophesied in the Bible and to help save them from the coming deception. For the many people who have criticized me over the last 6 weeks for "setting dates", I only want to say to you that I really do not care when Jesus comes (although I'd really love for it to be like RIGHT NOW!). I am only interested in helping to turn people to Christ after the Rapture, by proving from the Scriptures that this event was foretold to take place at the exact time that it took place, so that those left behind might turn to Christ when they read what I have written before it happened, and they would take the information and share it with others, so that they too might come to Christ.

This is what the Lord told me I would do..."You will be as John the Baptist and will write something that will HELP SAVE MILLIONS OF PEOPLE FROM THE DECEPTION THAT IS ABOUT TO TAKE PLACE." John the Baptist was the one who pointed to Jesus and told the people - Here He is! This is the One! Behold the Lamb of God! What I am supposed to write is something that will say to those left behind - This was JESUS! This was the date the BIBLE predicted this would happen! This is not an alien invasion that abducted millions of people! This was the Rapture that was prophesied to take place right on this day and this is how we knew it would happen on this day, because the Bible and the Holy Spirit revealed it to His servants that this was the time of His coming!

It is not important for those of us who make the Rapture to know the time of His coming; it's only important for those left behind to see that this event was JESUS. The deception will be so powerful that even Christians could fall for the lies. I want to help them understand that what is taking place is JESUS and not ALIENS. I want to point to Jesus and say like John the Baptist - LOOK! THIS IS HIM! He's the ONE! TURN TO HIM! He alone can save you!!!

I do believe that the Lord has given me the final piece of the puzzle and that He has clearly shown me on which day He is coming for us, and it all relates to October 7, 2012, the last day of the Feast of Tabernacles. I am not sure what He wants me to do with the information since I doubt anyone will believe me at this point and it really only matters that those left behind are able to read what I write anyway. Maybe He just wants me to explain what He has shown me a day or two before it happens so that those left behind will have access to the information and people will stop persecuting me and telling me to stop "date setting".

But be encouraged, the Rapture is very near and much closer than many of you think. Watch for an earthquake or a really huge sign from the Lord this weekend to take place that will be a warning to the world of what is coming soon.

Blessings,
Renee