Dear Lou Ann,
 
You saw how many on Five Doves responded immediately to you in love.  They have not seen you but they love you with the Love of the Lord.
 
One person said that we cannot control what others say about us but we can control how we react to what is said.  I wholly agree. Jesus Himself had vile things said about Him.  He allowed Himself to experience death so that you do not have to.  It is the enemy of our souls, Satan, who comes alongside whispering accusations and lies, hoping that we will succumb to them.
 
Can you imagine what it would do to your precious Mother if you were to take your own life?  It would most probably break her heart, killing her.  We are not our own, we have been purchased with a price beyond reach...the very blood of Jesus purchased us.  He has promised that He will take the pain we have all experienced in this life and cause it somehow to work for our good.  In the meantime, He feels our pain compassionately and empathetically.  Someone in His inner circle also turned on Him without cause.  Judas betrayed Him.  But that was not the final chapter, just as this painful episode is not the final chapter for you, even though it feels like it.  God will make a way where there seems to be no way.
 
Please believe me, Lou Ann.  I have walked with Jesus for over 50 years and He has never failed me.  His timing may not be my timing and I may not understand at the moment, but when I look back later, I inevitably see that insisting on my way could have resulted in catastrophic sadness.  In the times that I was down, He was there, working on several levels of the situation.  Cling to Him and He will show you the way one day at a time. We will pray through this with you and it will start to unfold in truth.  Anyone who knows you knows that what was said was not true.
 
The final court of truth awaits when Jesus will make a judgment call, showing all that you are innocent of accusation.
 
Hold On for the sake of your Mom and Let Jesus do what you cannot do.
 
Praying for you,
 
Judy