Dear Nicole, I love you like a daughter. I often read your posts, I dont always reply but I enjoy reading them. My heart goes out to you when you mention the many trials you are going through and have gone through. I also had a very controlling mother, I ended up with anorexia and bulimia when I was younger.
 
At the moment I battle with my health, I am waiting for tests results from the hospital next week. Every day is a struggle but Jesus is giving me the stregth to carry on. I read this note written by David Wilkinson before he died. It might encourage you as it did me.
 
David Wilkinson wrote "To those going through the valley and shadow of death, hear this word: Weeping will last through some dark, awful nights, and in that darkness you will soon hear the Father whisper, 'I am with you. I cannot tell you why right now, but one day it will all make sense. You will see it was all part of my plan. It was no accident.'"
 
This omes with much love from your mommy in Christ
 
Jane