As I type this an ad for Christian mingle is on. I tried to take a day off and stopped into work to rake care of something and was there two and a half hours. Because I was there a met a quarterly goal and yearly goal where my company may get some extra income. My family is rushing to activities I am supposed to go and because I well am dad.

Meeting these immposible goals was entirely Gods doing. It has created an impossibly demanding amount of work for me to do in the next month or so I am at the whim of the world. Except you and I know the rapture may be occuring by the end of the month the economy is about to collapse even though the stock market is its highest.

I asked what is going on the thought God is fattening the calf everyone is running to and fro not a clue that Gods wrath is about to be poured out I tell them and they say you have been saying that for years.

The fast and the proud are running forward in life wondering why I am trying to run the other way. The fact is they don't get what I do God is fattening up
The calf letting everyone believe its getting better the thing is there is always another quarter to meet always another goal. God met this one I wanted to do my job to overcome to provide until He came be dependant on no one except His provision.

The thing is what I crave most the time to come out of the world to seperate from its mindless dash like rats forward to a cliff gets harder to come by the closer we get. The important things time with Gods word, time to watch pray witness even be with family in quiet times is being beaten out of us to keep us running. The thing is they think they are somehow going to see the profit of their labor. I see no illusions of this. My dads inheritance a few dollars not much will be coming in a few weeks to what good? It will be thrown in the streets soon if I see right.

I have to to my job till He comes I have to care for my family but most importantly I need to focus on the fact that the flesh profits nothing it is the spirit that is life. Everyone by goals and deadlines and activities and entertainment is made to focus on this life this existance not realizing that God is making the wise vain because all this striving will be nothing.

I wish to be nothing so I can live though Jesus for the real life. I could not even take one day to be with my son without God having to interject me back to work to meet the immposible goal I through Him met. But the reward will just be more running more goals.

It's all to keep our minds off the fact we are running to death. Our things will not come with us. Work to eat and peace with family have been replaced by perpetual rat race.

But look what's coming:


13 The burden of Babylon, which Isaiah the son of Amoz did see.

2 Lift ye up a banner upon the high mountain, exalt the voice unto them, shake the hand, that they may go into the gates of the nobles.

3 I have commanded my sanctified ones, I have also called my mighty ones for mine anger, even them that rejoice in my highness.

4 The noise of a multitude in the mountains, like as of a great people; a tumultuous noise of the kingdoms of nations gathered together: the Lord of hosts mustereth the host of the battle.

5 They come from a far country, from the end of heaven, even the Lord, and the weapons of his indignation, to destroy the whole land.

6 Howl ye; for the day of the Lord is at hand; it shall come as a destruction from the Almighty.

7 Therefore shall all hands be faint, and every man's heart shall melt:

8 And they shall be afraid: pangs and sorrows shall take hold of them; they shall be in pain as a woman that travaileth: they shall be amazed one at another; their faces shall be as flames.

9 Behold, the day of the Lord cometh, cruel both with wrath and fierce anger, to lay the land desolate: and he shall destroy the sinners thereof out of it.

10 For the stars of heaven and the constellations thereof shall not give their light: the sun shall be darkened in his going forth, and the moon shall not cause her light to shine.

11 And I will punish the world for their evil, and the wicked for their iniquity; and I will cause the arrogancy of the proud to cease, and will lay low the haughtiness of the terrible.

12 I will make a man more precious than fine gold; even a man than the golden wedge of Ophir.

13 Therefore I will shake the heavens, and the earth shall remove out of her place, in the wrath of the Lord of hosts, and in the day of his fierce anger.

14 And it shall be as the chased roe, and as a sheep that no man taketh up: they shall every man turn to his own people, and flee every one into his own land.

15 Every one that is found shall be thrust through; and every one that is joined unto them shall fall by the sword.

16 Their children also shall be dashed to pieces before their eyes; their houses shall be spoiled, and their wives ravished.

17 Behold, I will stir up the Medes against them, which shall not regard silver; and as for gold, they shall not delight in it.

18 Their bows also shall dash the young men to pieces; and they shall have no pity on the fruit of the womb; their eyes shall not spare children.

19 And Babylon, the glory of kingdoms, the beauty of the Chaldees' excellency, shall be as when God overthrew Sodom and Gomorrah.

20 It shall never be inhabited, neither shall it be dwelt in from generation to generation: neither shall the Arabian pitch tent there; neither shall the shepherds make their fold there.

21 But wild beasts of the desert shall lie there; and their houses shall be full of doleful creatures; and owls shall dwell there, and satyrs shall dance there.

22 And the wild beasts of the islands shall cry in their desolate houses, and dragons in their pleasant palaces: and her time is near to come, and her days shall not be prolonged.


The darkness at the Day of The Lord the rapture like a thief. Everyone is being lulled asleep on a treadmill and I am crazy that I am not happy with all this work maybe more income my dads inheritance to pay off a few bills. There will be more bills and the fact is God is just letting the world spin until He pulls the rug out. I see the rug being grabbed and my most urgent desire is to be lifted off it as I am rushed forward to the next goal or activity.

I just want to eat till He comes. My only dream is to be with Jesus in the air. I am not drinking the kool aid.