Thank you for sharing your life story, I was emotional even reading it.  Thank you for responding to the call.  I don't think it's long now.  I feel in my spirit also God is preparing us for this time.  He needs vessels He can fill, He's looking for obedience.
 

It's been a few hours since I read your post, so I am forgetting many things I wanted to say, but I just remembered something: go and get baptized on your own, with a fellow believer.  It can be anywhere.

 

God bless you,

Kari