I was convicted to get rid of things past music I've had since the eighties! I had an Adam ant cd in my alarm clock for seventeen years! Have not played it for sixteen! I had other stuff laying around from my old life as well. I promised I would throw it out. I think as we are closer to the rapture God is convicting us to clean our closets so to speak. I know what's internal harms us not external but I tried to throw stuff out then it made me think of my old pet sin. I said this is stupid and took the stuff back in the house an hour later I am in that pet sin I realize I have sinned by reminiscing about my past life and with all I know am in it. I really started a fire and burned a few CDs my wife said sell them you think I want to expose a new generation to rancid although they were chior boys next to some today! I really don't know what to say I walked the normal train and the lax train for two days since 3/22 and was taken completely off my feet in an instant I fell down. The funny thing is by today's standards of the world what I did well the world would think I'm more normal for it then saying its a sin but to me I knew instantly knew the horror because how close we are! There is a difference between the inadvertent transgressions we make after being born again and falling back into our past way of action even for an instant. The horror is I am not a part of the world I do not feel fellowship with it I lost when sinning that palpable connect with the holy spirit. I have repented apologized had a nice fire and sorry burned rancid and Adam and and a few more CDs and am just shocked how fast i went from thinking solid in my walk to on the ground with a cross crushing my spirit. I ask you to pray for my forgiveness of my inequity before Jesus you know it's funny my watching keeps me moving forward not looking back I did for one second and wallowed in a past I thought behind me. The sin does not matter one drink for an alcoholic one song for a heavy metal headbanger or whatever we were convicted from its so easy to look back and do horrible what you see. Jesus has had mercy on me He was there when I called His name with all I know it's amazing how quickly I fell looking away from my cross. I am sorry Jesus I am sorry Doves Jesus insights were all that kept me going. Please Lord be not silent to me lest I become like them going in the pit! That saying is real capture every thought to Christ do not look back!