Doves,

I thought I would share a dream that was very profound in its meaning. First off, I will share with you that I had this dream in the late 80's, but I can recall every detail clearly.
The dream started out with me standing in the back of a church adorned in my wedding gown, literally about to walk up the aisle. I could see my Groom at the altar, and it wasn't my husband. At this stage in the dream, I wasn't sure who the Groom was. The wedding was about to start. On both sides of the church, were all the guests, turned around to gaze at me. I felt something was wrong, but wasn't sure what it was, sort of like I had forgotten something.
All eyes were on me, especially my Groom, who was looking at me with such incredible love and pride! As I'm walking up the aisle, my dress started to come unbuttoned in the front, and the stitching in the seams started to rip out! I was horrified, and was futilely clutching my dress with both hands and trying to cover myself because the dress was literally falling apart, and threatening to expose my nakedness! At this point, I saw an open door off to the left of the front of the church. The sun was shining, but it had just got done raining, and everything was wet and glistening in the sun. This open door compelled me to run for it. And the strange thing was, the attraction of the open door was very strong. I couldn't bear the embarrassment of my predicament, so
I bolted for the door. I immediately started running through the dirt parking lot. I ran until I saw a huge mud puddle formed from the recent downpour. I could feel an overwhelming and uncontrollable urge come over me to jump in the mud puddle! And this I did, flopping around and totally getting all muddy, and strangely enjoying it.
About then, I looked up at the open door of the church, and just outside the door, there stood my Groom, looking at me with a combination expression of intense hurt mixed with pity and love. It was then that I recognized Him- it was Jesus!!  I felt so much shame for what I had done to Him, but was lost to explain why I had behaved in this irrational way.
I then woke up, with the look of my Groom's face burned into my mind. I couldn't shake the feeling of His pain, as it was so profound! The meaning of the dream was immediately made clear to me. Although, at first I was not sure as to who the bride was (surely, it wasn't me). I understood the message that the Lord was giving me about a Bride who abandons her Groom at the altar.
As it turned out, this dream was indeed meant for me at the time. It was a vision of what was to happen in my near future. I didn't want to believe that I  would do something like this to Jesus! It had to be representative of someone else, but not me. So I pushed the dream to the back of my mind. A few months later, something happened at the church I was attending, that caused a big wound in my heart. It was pretty bad, and I stopped going there. I couldn't forgive what the individual had done to me, so I eventually stopped going to church. The inability to forgive caused me to be bitter. Over the course of a few years, I was completely backslidden. But that's not the end of this story---Thanks be to His awesome mercy and grace, a couple of years ago, He restored me back to a relationship with Him, that is nothing short of Glorious!!
This dream also has a strong meaning for those who have once been in good standing with the Lord, only to become sidetracked with the distractions and pleasures of this world- aka- the mud puddle. They to, have abandoned their Groom at the altar. The white gown represents purity and righteousness. And sin, whatever form it takes, will cause our gown to "fall apart" and our righteousness will become as filthy rags. We must thoroughly examine our  our gowns at this late stage! Let's get ready to walk up the aisle, Jesus is as excited as we are!!
" How shall we escape, if we neglect so great salvation?" Hebrews 2:3
           In Jesus Love
            Jacquel Neff