Thank you so much you are correct tears of joy and tears of sorrow mixed together and no they will not be wiped away by anyone except when I See God and he says it's ok! I love my wife and son but hate the world in them and me! My favorite place is in a hammock between two trees in the woods by a stream looking up still waters green pastures! In the vanity of my flesh I look at more hammocks and then say why I have one! Aargh! I have like seven or eight different kinds! I strongly believe The rapture is imminent and I so want to be part of the bride! Not just not to be left here but to be with Jesus and return in His strength and not be here in my weak fleshy state! Everyone around me comes and seeks me out when I seek out solitude to read five doves or be with the Lord! I so long to be with Him but here with my family also! I feel you all are the closest to spiritual true family I have I fear the Internet going down soon and we must encourage now! If God will be so kind and merciful to hide us under his wing those who seek Him diligently and let us not be ashamed that trust in Him. I am a dove with clipped wings I want to fly! The transit of Venus I feel is Jesus coming back from east to west and Him giving the morning star! When Jesus fills your heart people see your devotion to Him as taking from their expectations of your giving to them! I see that but it's just realizing true value and met y you ask for them also! I have a kayak trip upcoming if I am here next week it's so annoying to my wife I don't build barns anymore in advance! But one called because someone's son is going to check if he's old enough because they drink beer all the way down the river! I usually go ahead with one friend the survival gear and commune with God! One year a storm bore upon us I prayed psalm 32 aloud and it bore south! A year I did not go the deluge hit them! Last year a thunderstorm hit my friend and I safely sat on an island they did not get off heed the warnings! The first year to ado sirens went off we were not touched I thank God looking back for this witness! I love you all more then you can know and shake with fear and trembling hoping to see you at my hammock if Jesus will give me one in heaven really it's all I want I do not deserve that let alone a mansion I pray God will wipe all our tears away and I pray for those who roll their eyes at me that they will know the truth turn their hearts to Jesus and be saved! I am truly sorry for any thing I did to put Him on that tree! I hope I can. Old back with Him I hope he sees me as you do!