Oh my, you JUST lost your husband! Well, you didn't "lose" him ~ you KNOW where he's at!! But for this fresh loss, and your fresh sorrow, you truly have my sympathetic Christian condolences! I certainly hope you are doing okay!There's a book, though I've not read it but it's been recommended, called, "The Tender Scar" ~ one can find it on amazon. Might kinda' help work through some of the pain. This was a medical Dr. and he tells about the extreme guilt he felt when his wife died & there was nothing he could do to save her. ..... guilt is, unfortunately, part of the process in dealing with grief. Anyway, just a thought.I expect the rapture will be so soon that your time of being apart will be short lived!And thanks for telling us about "Tina" your fur kid. I truly believe they'll be in heaven, too. I have my own story about that (too long to go into just now)I hope many of the strays that had to live -- through no fault of their own -- wretched lives down here, b/c man would not care for them or just treated them hideously -- will be found at heaven's doorsteps, too!!I feed the birds and as I watch them, I am reminded that the Creator loves them, made them, AND CARES FOR THEM!! Even such little tiny creatures that they are!Thanks for joining us on Doves.RJ