Thank you so much. May the Lord richly bless you for 5Doves. Abba has greatly blessed me with it. While it’s getting hard to read the articles I can still read the headlines. May Abba be glorified.

 

You see I'm autistic, in my early 30's. I live with my parents (they don't know Jesus though). I'll always need help and will never be independent. I've been developing brain damage. My memory is almost completely gone. Reading a book is a struggle. That includes the Bible. His strength is made perfect in my weakness. His ways and thoughts are higher than mine. He's helping me to cling to a handful of scriptures that I still can understand. Matt. 11:28,Psalm 27:14, Psalm 46:10 and Exodus 14:14. I have now gotten to the point where I can't even focus on something as simple as heating up water in the microwave to make rice or oatmeal. Why do I say this? So, you can get a better idea of how I can tell you what I will next. God will be glorified. That's all that matters.

 

His strength is made perfect in my weakness. Because honestly, the Lord strengthening me is the only way I'm able to write this much. I know if I would have been trying to write it on paper in a journal it would have been too difficult. So, the Lord gets the glory and credit for it's only through His strength that I can even write this much.

 

Jesus is so good. He's helping me to rest in Him. He's helping me to not be afraid. May our wonderful God encourage you. There's really nothing to fear. The Lord knows things are getting really bad. Jesus has overcome and so will we, in His strength. He's encouraging me with a song Bill Gaither had on with three brothers singing. "If We Never Meet Again This Side of Heaven". Hope it encourages you,too (the song is easy to find online).

 

There's nothing to fear in death so there isn't anything to fear that happens before that. How can I tell you that? The spiritual realm feels closer than the physical. I feel more connected to my spirit than body. Jesus has let me see an angel out of the corner of my eye, by my bed. When I look the angel disappears. It wears white and is see-through. It's happening more. Not sure how much but I do remember that it happens atleast once a day. I know it's happened alot while writing this email.

 

The Lord's given me a peace that passes all understanding. There's nothing to fear about death. I don't feel a connection to my body very well but I actually feel my spirit inside of me. If this is how those who go to be with the Lord feel weeks or days before their deaths than I can assure you there's nothing to fear. I'm so looking forward to see Jesus' most beautiful smile and getting a big hug from Him! This world feels bland but the spiritual realm feels magnetic. It's like my spirit is holding out its arms and waiting to be picked up by Jesus. You know like how a little child falling down waits to be picked up by mommy and daddy.

 

The one thing that the Lord lets me clearly remember is a dream He gave me a long time ago. I'd die twice. I wasn't shown the 1st time. A woman at a desk told me "It doesn't count. You're no longer dead". I was shown the 2nd time how I'd die. It was by martyrdom. It must have been in a fema camp for a guillotine was used. Mattew West said Jesus is the author of a person's life. I mention this because the Lord surely has an interesting way of doing things. His ways are higher than our ways and His thoughts our thoughts. You see I was born in Morgantown, WV (I had to be born there for I was born a micro preemie and the town I've always lived in couldn't help mom deliver a preemie). The nearest fema camp is in Morgantown, WV. So, while it's still up to Jesus it's very likely I'll die in the same town I was born in.

 

Also, Jesus was at a picnic table in another part of the dream. It was Him, some other people (don't know who they were) and me. Whoever He comforted would die for Him. I was one of the ones He comforted! His smile, how do I explain it? There's nothing more beautiful than His smile! Nothing else matters when He smiles. My spirit yearns within me just to see that smile. The closer I feel to the spiritual realm (and less attached to this physical world/ my body) the more my spirit yearns within me just to see Jesus and get a big hug from Him. You will understand just how beautiful His smile is once you get to see Him.

 

The Holy Spirit comforts me. With a new resurrected body means a new brain to go with that body. Praise Jesus, no more brain damage! The Rapture is sooner than anyone realizes. We will get to see Jesus and get to meet each other sooner than any of us know (whether by death or the Rapture we will all be in Heaven sooner than we realize).

 

I know I got to get off. It is sad though. I wish I could just keep talking about our Lord and eternity. Nothing else matters. WW3, fema camps, all of that will only last briefly.  I hope Abba and Jesus have greatly encouraged you through the Holy Spirit. Eternity is beyond words. Jesus' smile is beyond beautiful. There's nothing to fear in death. Take comfort in that. As long as someone knows Jesus when a person gets closer to death all there is is peace. The Perfect peace that only can come from the Holy Spirit.