In about 1992/1993, God revealed to me that, indeed, Jesus was coming.  That revelation penetrated me to the core.  I could not walk away from it, or pretend that it wasn't the case.  It was at that time I started "to watch".

God used that revelation since then, at least in part, to sustain me with the Blessed Hope, in my life and walk with Him.

Back then I had no clue how long the wait would be.  It would have not been good for me to know at that time.  

Now?  We are so very close.

About a month ago, I was really wanting to know "when?".  I was really weighed down in my heart about it.  I felt, like Paul expressed in 2 Timothy 4:6-8 (and many of you?), that "I had been poured out like a drink offering".  I felt like I had nothing left.  It was "one day at a time".

In laying out myself before Jesus in prayer, it was like He asked me a question.  "If you could know exactly the moment of my return for you by eating of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil, would you eat of it?"

I knew in that moment that, no, I do not want to eat of that Tree.  I want to "eat" of Him, my Tree of Life.  More than anything, I just want Him.

As new creations in Christ, that is who we are in our union with the Holy Spirit.  Our true heart longing is only for Jesus.

By not knowing exactly when He would come for me, I understood that Jesus, in love, was protecting my heart.  He is jealous, in Love and for my ultimate good, that my heart is only focused on Him, now/today, and that Jesus wants me to trust Him as a little child.

His coming for us will be in His absolutely perfect timing for every one of us.

At this time/season, I believe we are finally on the cusp of going home.  Yet, in this moment, we are still down here.  However, we are already in union with the One we long for.

I want to enjoy being with Jesus today, even while trying "to tread water" in this "life-sucking sledge of a man-centered world system".

Jesus is our Tree of Life, now.

For what is it worth.

Douglas