Rowina (9 July 2013)
"To John B and
"welcome to the club""
I am also an "ex-Catholic", but I was not raised Catholic.
in my childhood world, the only contact I had with Christian
teaching was through the Catholic kids in my neighborhood plus
the Christmas carols we sang at school. I never went to
any church, Catholic or Protestant, except one Sunday to a
Baptist "Sunday school" where we did nothing but cut out autumn
leave shapes in colored paper. We had no Bible at
home. My grandmother gave me a small Bible (she was
Protestant but lived in another city) and I hid it under my
pillow, because my parents would not have approved. My
mother found the little Bible, of course, and did not
approve. She didn't take away the Bible but she made it
seem so shameful that I stopped trying to read it much. I
had no one to guide my reading.
So in my growing up years, until college, I had both Catholic
and Protestant influences, both indirect. But the Catholic
was stronger because I was with the neighborhood kids a
lot. In those days, maybe before your time, kids spent
lots of time out playing in the neighborhood. It was safer
then to just go outside without close parental supervision or
being on a "play date" away from home. Actually there WAS
supervision in my neighborhood because not one mother
worked. Wherever we played, there was a mother or aunt at
home. And many of the mothers or aunts were Catholic along
with their children.
So when I grew up and went to college, I had a hard time.
I became ill soon after going to college, probably from exposure
to formaldehyde in the Biology lab, to which I had a strong
sensitivity.
I had no good counselors there. Other students put me
through what I suppose is a typical college hazing situation,
falsely accusing me of stealing little things, or trying to
attack me sexually (lesbians, Protestant-raised lesbians from
"good families"), etc. No one knew why I was ill, but I
had no friends except some Catholic girls who were kinder than
the others.
You can see where this is going. I became a Catholic in my
college years simply because the only kindness I received, apart
from my immediate family, was from young Catholics.
I am not a Catholic now. A long process of re-education
and experience over many years led me away from that. In
fact, my only "vision" of Jesus occurred on the day I made up my
mind to finally leave the Church.
But even then, I had occasion to attend a Catholic church in the
town where we were living, my husband and I. I went there
many times, even though I was officially studying the Bible at
Calvary Chapel, and was not an official "member" of the Catholic
parish. I observed and listened. It occurred to me
that the priests there were preaching the gospel just as well,
sometimes better, than the pastors at the local Calvary
Chapel. Yes, they had a statue of Mary, and optional
rosary-praying sessions. Yes, they asked Mary's
intercession occasionally from the pulpit.
But basically, they were teaching the gospel of Jesus, that he
came to save us and die for us, and that we must ask for His
mercy and his direction. They were doing just what the
kids in
my neighborhood did many years before. They were telling
the true story of Jesus in the way that a hurting child...for I
was still hurting as an adult...could understand. I needed
both their kindness and the good Bible teaching of Calvary
Chapel. So I am a Protestant who appreciates what local
parishes do in the Catholic church, far apart from whatever the
Pope is doing in Rome.
You speak, John, of the horrors of medieval persecution by
Catholics. Remember that Protestants tortured and killed
Catholics in those days, and afterwards, as in the days of the
Protestant Reformation, where many Catholics were persecuted and
martyred by Protestants. A famous case was Catholic Thomas
More, murdered by Protestant Henry VIII, but Thomas More himself
persecuted a noble Protestant, Wycliffe, who translated the
Bible into English against strong resistance. Thomas More
and Wycliffe were both true to their beliefs, while evil men
like Henry VIII killed them. John Calvin burned Michael
Servetus at the stake, and that was but one famous time a
Protestant leader burned someone who didn't agree with
him. History is so full of the murder and torture of
Christians by one another that it is obvious why my parents
banned the Bible in our home. They were trying to be
decent people, not murderers such as Christians had been
throughout history, both Protestant and Catholic.
So where is God in all this? He is weeping over the foolishness
of men.