Oh Lord hear my petition, my spirit is in anguish before thee; I hear and see the sounds and sights of your. Oming they are a loud shout a bright flash to wake the dead! Yet I try in vain it seems to show those around me I love and those strangers to me, what do I do Lord for I read they loved the lie rather then the truth to walk in in and perish! I hate the lie yet am trapped by its web it gets stuck to me and I want to free as a fly from a spider! Cut my chains free oh Lord take the logs from my eyes, give me salve to clean others do they may see and through the turning of their mind rend their hearts to you and be saved; I cry for oil that my lamp stays lit for you are coming see me! I cannot go on in the vanity that seeks to cover me from you, I plead you lift my feet up from the snare and the net I have been watching and praying let me flee to your strong tower for refuge oh Lord that I am safe! I give you my heart my mind my soul and spirit all I am and ever will be cast me not out Jesus! I seek to turn from my covetousness, licentiousness, and all vanity and pray your blood clean my filthy rags! I want to marry you Jesus hide me as a bride before the wedding come sweep me away and please have mercy upon your humble servant! I have no hope in my flesh that seeks to anchor me to this world let me through the spirit mortify it's desired and deeds that I am focused on you. I trust in you let me not be ashamed let your dove free from this cage I am in! Please save me Jesus take me home give me oil until you come let me hide under your wing! Swing your staff good Shepard!

I wanted to put into words the anguish with which my soul is crying out! I know what's coming I am trying to warn and focus on Jesus! The world is just going about its business I went to the zoo and mall this weekend my wife is having our bathrooms redone! I have work how can I get out of the webs entangling me to be free? He's coming all the other stuff does not matter but no one believes you even if they believe Jesus may come some day it's no excuse to stop charging ahead! But does not the bible say if you stop and turn from your ways and pray I will hear and heal you? Is it time we became speed bumps that others rooms over to the cliff ahead? I would rather be a speed bump then speed over a cliff! Please pray for my anguish and for yours for our families for Jerusalem. Nothing else matters except our walk with Jesus it's not years guys it's days to a few months and that's nothing! I am having such a hard time wanting to just flee with my fsmy in the flesh but then the spirit says there's no where to go or hide and nothing by the work of hands that will save you and I know it's true! Everyone just wants this world this life to continue on so they can have theirs they worked for play with their kids friends etc. They want what their parents had! But they ignore the church is ignoring the bible saying we are the last generation! So the church is preaching a seeker gospel the abundant life, the John 3:16 not 3:36 gospel faith not married to obedience out of love that produces good works is dead! I try every day to watch to pray to warn to see to heat and to crucify myself and sometimes I fail and in vanity desire just another week to somehow have meaningful time with my family! But it's all vanity shopping for groceries and stuff yard work activities and I seek solitude with the Lord! I am sorry for my sins and vanity of the flesh! I have tried to warn times up guys it really is! The finish is ahead but do few even know there's a race to be run! How could we have gone to church for sixteen years and learned so little of Christ that its not about an abundant life here but a separation from the vanity unto eternal life not here?