Dearest
Carol,
How our hearts hurt for
your loss of KJ. We are holding all of you up to the Lord during these
hard days.
I had just read this
little word from two dear old ladies in a little ministry in Australia and
wanted to share it with you, hoping it might bring you a bit of comfort. They
write:
"We can sometimes
be so sad when something happens that we might not even be able to put words to
our prayers. Jesus is close with us, and knows our thoughts and the groans
of the Holy Spirit within us. A son or daughter (or grandson) can cause
such broken heartedness that sobs and tears are all you can manage. A dear
one goes to be with God in physical death, and the parting causes great pangs of
distress."
"Charles Spurgeon wrote of this in his lovely book, Morning and
Evening:
'A
lachrymatory is a narrow-necked bottle thought to be used to catch tears,
sometimes found in ancient Roman tombs...
Often times a poor broken-hearted one bends
his knee, but can only utter his wailing in the language of sight and tears; yet
that groan has made all the harps of Heaven thrill with music; that tear has
been caught by God and treasured in the "lachrymatory" of Heaven. 'Thou
puttest my tears into thy bottle,' implies that they are caught as they flow.
The suppliant, whose fears prevent
his words, will be well understood by the Most High."
"Spurgeon also described
it thus: "God puts
our prayers, like rose petals, between the pages of His book of
remembrance, and when the volume is opened at last, there shall be a precious
fragrance springing up there from."
They end by saying:
"When we cry out in grief...there is One Who is with us and in us, inspiring and
anointing those prayers - ever living to intercede for us and our loved
ones and our circumstances."
In times of great sorrow, I have
found these verses from Lamentations to offer matchless comfort:
Lamentations
3:19-24
19 Remembering mine
affliction and my misery, the wormwood and the gall.
20 My
soul hath them still in remembrance, and is humbled in me.
21 This
I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope.
22 It
is of the Lord's
mercies that we are not consumed, because
his compassions fail not.
23 They
are new every morning: great is thy
faithfulness.
24 The
Lord is my portion,
saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.
Carol - please know that
we, as His body, will be praying for you and yours, and please try to
remember that God's compassions (compassions: to love, love deeply, have mercy, be
compassionate, have tender affection, have compassion) upon us are NEW EVERY
MORNING. That means that every single morning when you awaken, you can
call out to God for new, fresh compassion from Him upon you and your family for
that day, and He will give them anew every single day, He will never tire of
pouring out His compassions upon you, He will never fail in this and each day,
He will give them anew...over and over and over, He will pour out upon you His
tender mercies and His loving compassions, and His great faithfulness will
never, ever fail you.
I pray you will rest in
that and find His comfort for your soul; may the Lord be your portion.