I had a profound experience this morning and last night. Had an appointment with another Christian on my schredule been canceled twice by things hitting his life. It's 10 degrees out. I was just chastised for being late for a meeting its because I am truly exhausted by what I know and see at night. Because I cannot get anyone to Realize we rush to and fro our reward tv and food. My child watches tv then cannot go to sleep well keeps waking us up. I suggest no tv it's not that be quiet I am told swirl in my head.

I am fearful and trembling about my own inequity. I want the wrong things in my flesh to rest, to be at peace with family, others. But I cannot enjoy what they see as rewards tv, movies, shopping etc.

I want to witness Jesus but am constantly running too and fro. I am tired because I am trying to watch and pray and warn and am tired. They follow the course of this world and use their energy here.

But I look around and everyone is tired. The churches are not sanctuaries anymore I don't know where to rest my head.

I am calling out to Jesus its exhausting seeing your own weakness my thoughts are wrong day and night I think of here in the flesh but crave Jesus in the spirit. Who will save me from this body of sin and death.