To Whom It May Concern

Very similar  to my own experience.

I can relate to a lot of what this gentle man experienced.  I did not grow up an atheist, but I grew up poor, lonely and empty. But I too believe it was for a reason.

My mother died when I was two, and my father remarried a very self-centered person. She had three kids of her own, one a daughter very close to my age, so her daughter was put first in everything. I was rejected, put on the side, told I was stupid and would not amount to anything…certainly nothing better then her own daughter. I was physically abused in every way - You get the picture. When I was nine, the bottom fell out of my world when my grandmother died - the only person who cared about me. I cried and carried on so much; I was almost not allowed to go to the funeral. The night after the funeral I had a dream/vision I will not go into all of it, but I will mention two things that stood out. I too knew nothing about spiritual things. The first incident in heaven happened when my grandmother stared showing me her home in heaven, and all the time I remarked about how beautiful everything was, and she kept repeating as we saw each room. “Jesus did it for me.” Well, when we got to her living room, I examined her wall paper, but it was not actually wall paper but roses embedded in the walls. Years later, as life’s struggles took over, I forgot a lot about this dream, and remembered just bits and pieces and kind of doubting the whole thing. I was going through a really rough patch. Then I picked up the book Heavens Gates, by Rebecca Spring and in her book. She talks about wall paper and real flowers embedded into it.

Anyway back to my dream, I met my mother while I was in heaven, and we played for what seemed like hours in the park, kind of making up for lost time…and for a kid who missed her mother… It was great. Then she became very serious. She was sitting on a swing and pulled me onto her lap and started to talk to me about my life, and the hardships that I would go through. She talked a fairly long time. I started to listen but being only nine I got bored and wanted to continue to play because I did not get the opportunity often. I do not remember what she said, but I know it concerned my life and all the hardship I would encounter, but like this gentleman mentioned in his account, that there was a reason for it, concerning other souls and salvation. When I finally got saved at 17, I asked the Lord why such a life, and he answered me. “If you had not been looking for love you never would have found me.”  I do not fully understand the answer, but I know it has to do with other people’s salvation too.

Thx Debbie