Thanks for sharing the interesting post, I was surprised at this considering previous posts.
What you wrote reminded me of a video I recently saw in
which a father and son where in an accident. The son was in a coma for a
long time and his spinal chord was severed. When he came out of the
coma he described being in heaven frequently, he was also able to
describe the accident even though he was not responsive at the time. He
continued to have intimate discussions with Jesus and seeing angels
after his coma.
His father had a hard time with it because he could not see these things.
His
son finally said to him he needs to be transparent to hear and see
these things. His father really struggled with this and during a time of
desperation he found himself actually speaking God's words out of his
mouth, it wasn't him but God used his mouth to speak these words.
So to me, what you are describing is that you are
allowing God to show you things beyond the curtain. I think this is a
form of exercising your faith. Something we all need to strive for.
May God reveal to you deeper and deeper things.