David H.

Thank you!  Deep down I always knew HE had something like "this" in
store for me.  HE offered this path to me when I was 25 and I turned HIM
down.  I told HIM ,  Hey I just want to go to church and be a regular
Christian, you know, a "Formy" as we refer to them now.  HE then
allowed that to happen.  I did however, remain close to HIM in spirit my
entire life ( I have been able to "hear HIS voice" the entire time.  Actually
I thought everyone could and it really surprised me to find out otherwise.
The life I then led would read like an adventure novel as HE kept me from
death so many times I've lost count.  Also denying me extreme success
in every endever I attempted.  I've been rich twice and poor three times
and now have been dragged down and deserted by almost everyone in
my life and have at long last surrendered  completely to HIS  will .  Man
what a road I have traveled!  I have been urged by many to write a book!
I now know that that book would begin and end with HIM.  The pattern
of conditioning you described is Exactly what has happened to me and
was wondering (without saying it ) if there was anyone else who was
going through this.  Are you? You didn't say in your answering post and
I am curious as to this given your knowledge on the matter. I did check
out your recomended verses ( oddly I had them all underlined) and YES
they did "click" w/ my Spirit. ( see Heb. 5:4)  I will state, just for the
record, that I fear nothing but GOD.  I'm not bragging in the least, but
what my life has been, even from a secular standpoint, you would see
how I would arrive at conclusion. Was HE conditioning me for what
must lay ahead? It must be the answer because nothing else makes
sense.  I don't beleive in coincidence, not where HE is concerned and
the "odds" of me making it to this point are off the scale so I must
conclude that what has and is happening in my life is for HIS  purpose
and IN HIM and WITH HIM Iam ready and willing that HIS WIIL
be done.  May the HOLY SPIRIT watch over you and guide you my
my brother..... Maranatha!

T.H.