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Below is my testimony of how God has called me
since I was a young girl. I feel like the last
person on earth that is worthy to be chosen to do
'anything' for Him in these last days. Please
tell me the truth as to God changing His mind on the
ones He has chosen for these last days...
GOD’S CALLING ON MY LIFE
When I was
born, my mother (who was an alcoholic) had RH
factor and I was born with 85% yellow blood (from
what they tell me). I had to have a total
blood transfusion in order to live. I was
born a month early and only weighed 5 pounds and
could fit in a shoe box.
When I
started to hit puberty, I went to live with my
aunt and uncle who were catholic. From the
time I knew the dedication of a nun's heart, I was
convinced in my heart I wanted to be one. I
knew I wanted to be dedicated to God and Him alone
for the rest of my life.
But
unfortunately, they didn't take me seriously and I
grew up. However, as I grew older, I had an
admiration for missionaries and felt that I was
meant to be one. I knew it would be an honor
to die for Dad.
In late
September of 1991, at the age of 33, God’s Holy
Spirit fell upon me in my home and revealed to me
His love and it was literally a Saul/Paul
experience.
I was changed in my spirit forever. From
that point forward, God became first in my heart,
above all else, even my children.
God led me to a
Christian conference in which it was prophesied
over me that ‘God was well pleased with me and my
obedience to Him’.
It was also revealed to me that God would
show me things prophetically.
At this
conference, as I was singing and praising God, all
of the sudden, I started thinking thoughts about
the Praise and Worship leader. I
thought, ‘People misunderstand you. They
think you are a fake and your faith is not real. They
think you are here for a show….’ These
thoughts continued until I stopped them, assuming
that I was judging this woman as I had never met
her before and didn’t know her. Within
minutes of thinking these thoughts, the Prophetess
stopped the music and proceeded to speak out loud
the very things I had just thought a few minutes
before.
Then, towards
the 3rd day of the conference, they
were very concerned that they wouldn’t collect
enough money to pay for the room at the hotel
where it was being held. There were only about 100
people there and they needed $8000 for the three
days. On
the last day of the conference, the daughter
walked into the room during the service with a
very sad look on her face. I
immediately thought, ‘why are you depressed, you
made budget’.
I was not privileged to that information so
I didn’t know why that thought came to my mind at
the time. The daughter walked down to the front
and whispered in her mother’s ear and the mother
immediately announced that the budget for the
conference had been made and everyone praised God.
Immediately
after this conference, God showed me a ‘vision’ of
a bride and groom.
He gave me the Scripture Habbakuk 2:23 and
told me to write the visions He gave me. He told
me that I could ask the Holy Spirit a question and
He would reveal God’s will to me through a vision
or Scripture or with pictures. I felt
that it was something very special and that I
shouldn’t take it lightly or abuse this gift. I would
ask the Holy Spirit to show me about the person I
was dating and He would give me a Scripture or a
picture that showed me the will of God for this
person in my life. God would always reveal to me
the explanation of these visions. This gift has
continued with me through the years and will
always be with me.
God revealed
to me, the man I was to marry, in February 1995 (3
½ years after he baptized/changed me
forever). After the wedding, many more visions
took place while in prayer. In one
vision, I saw myself, dressed in a white hooded
robe, kneeling down in Heaven. While
my head was bowed, a lion’s paw handed me a set of
keys.
In another
vision, I saw a multitude of people standing
together, and Jesus choosing certain people out of
this multitude and instructing for them to stand
behind Him.
I saw the phrase ‘many are called and few
are chosen’.
In another
vision, I saw myself dancing about in circles and
praising God.
In the ‘picture’ of this vision, my hand
was given a golden chalice cup.
I also have
had dreams given to me by God. In one
dream back in the late 90's, there was a wedding
taking place in a sanctuary. Everyone
was wearing maroon colored attire. They
were all seated and ready for the wedding to take
place. I
was behind the sanctuary, in the forum, where
someone was behind me and placed on me a white
garment (as like being knitted with holes) over
the maroon garment I also was wearing like
everyone in the sanctuary. This
person also put white shoes on my feet and
instructed me to go down the aisle. I went
down the aisle to the front of the sanctuary. At the
front, where the choir is usually seated, were
people sitting there in plain clothing, facing the
people in maroon, also waiting for the wedding to
take place.
But the wedding didn’t happen because the
bride wasn’t ready. I went back up the other aisle
of the sanctuary to the bridal chamber (behind the
sanctuary) where the bride was getting ready. I came
up to her from behind and zipped up her dress and
left the room.
I went back into the forum (the bridal
chamber had a door on both sides) where, through a
glass wall, there were people, in a separate part
of the building, were buying and selling items on
tables that were old and worthless. The
items had sale tags on them and these people were
giving great value to these items and couldn’t see
that they were worth nothing. They
had no idea, even though they could see through
the glass, that a wedding was about to take place,
or else they knew and didn’t care. They
were too caught up in buying and selling of these
worthless items on the tables.
In another
dream around the same time, I stood out on my
backyard porch at night and looked into the
eastern sky.
There was a huge round object that looked
like a sun or a moon. It was HUGE! Then,
from a more eastern direction, there came another
round object, of equal size, that moved toward
the first round object until it totally covered
it, like an eclipse. At the moment they
overlapped one another, something happened that
frightened me to the very core of my being, but I
don’t know what it was, I only felt the fear. I
immediately looked at my hands and knew that my
body was changing.
Before I had time to do anything else, my
body was being lifted up off the ground.
After my
marriage, I was also shown that I could pray the
blood of Jesus over the tornadoes and the rotation
would cease immediately. This has
happened almost annually and every time I pray
over the weather, the tornadoes dissipate. I have
actually gotten to visually see the rotation over
my home, stop when I prayed over it.
In the late
1990’s, while in a church service, I saw a very
tall ‘wall (Tsunami) of water coming toward me and
drowning me, and subsequently I experienced an
involuntary shaking of my body for over two hours.
Then,
over the next ten years, the shaking would come
and go, when I was in a church service where the
Holy Spirit was very present. It also
would come over me at home when I would be in
intense worship to God.
In May
2009 this ‘word of prophecy’ was spoken over me by
a couple and their daughter (who never met me
before):
‘This is
something that has been put on your heart but has
not happened yet. The Lord says, ‘There is a
change of address coming but not a physical
address. I am picking you up and I am moving you
to a new position, to a new place in life and to a
new understanding of who I am. I am
moving you to a new level of worship, a new level
of praise and a new level of relationship.
The Lord says
that this has been something that has been in the
works for quite some time and you have desired it
for many years.
But the Lord says that you’ve been willing
to be patient with Me in organizing this and
putting the things together. The
Lord says I have a tremendous Revelation coming to
you and I am going to change the way you see Me. The
Lord says that it will be by Revelation. The Lord
teaches people and gives them wisdom and knowledge
and imparts things to them by Revelation. The
Lord says it is My great pleasure to show you and
reveal to you Truth. The Lord says that one of
the main reasons why this Word is something that
you’ve been asking for is because you have read
the Scripture, ‘You will KNOW the Truth and the
Truth will set you FREE’ and you have wanted to be
‘Free’ and experience what that word ‘Free’ means. The
Lord says that you have not had the ability or
understanding to even comprehend the word ‘Free’. But the
Lord says that through ‘Revelation’ I am going to
show you what ‘freedom’ really is.
The Lord says
that the foundation has been laid and it’s a firm
foundation.
The Lord says that it has taken time but it
is a firm foundation and to stand firm on it and
that you are a leader. The Lord says I have chosen
you as a leader and to step out and that you have
giftings that are unique. The
Lord says that you are powerful and mighty in My
name. The
Lord says to be prepared for travel or movement
and a lot of shifting going on. The
Lord says to release your fears and anxiety that
you hold
and to trust in Me completely. I am
not going to leave your side. I am
not going to leave you and I am here to stay on
that firm foundation you have laid all these
years. I
am wrapping this cocoon of soft layers around you
and you should find your peace and rest and
comfort there and the healing that you are seeking
and searching for. You are to fall back on this
like a pillow blindly and be prepared to be
absorbed in it.
The Lord says
sometime in your life you have been bound or
confined and if the Son has set you free, you are
free indeed.
You are to be free of worry and you have
nothing to fear or worry about because I will take
care of you.
The Lord says
I am removing the entanglements of religion from
you and I am removing the rules from you. The
things that have bound you have been done out of
your desire to please Me. The Lord says that there
is so much more than doing things just because
that’s the way you’ve always done them. The
Lord says there is so much more than doing things
because that’s the way other people do it. The
Lord says this new address or place is new because
no one has ever told you about it before. There
isn’t a street or number to go to because no one
has ever been there before. The Lord says this is
a new place and a new revelation for you. The
thing that is important for you to remember is
that it is because you have been faithful in the
small things that I have given you. The Lord
says today is the reward for being faithful in the
little things because now I am going to give you
much. The Lord says I am going to reveal secrets
about Myself that other people around you don’t
know. But
because you have been faithful in the little
things and because your heart desires to KNOW Me,
I will reveal Myself to you. You are
not content to know ‘about’ Me. You
want to KNOW me.
I search the earth high and low looking for
people that want to really ‘know’ me.’
However, even
with all of the confirmations from my ‘Dad’ in
Heaven that He chose me to do His work in the last
days, I don’t feel I’ve been a faithful child.
When the rapture didn’t happen in 1999 like we all
were convinced it would, I’ve allowed myself to be
preoccupied with the material blessings He has
bestowed upon me.
I’ve been like a child playing with one toy
or another and not been keeping myself ready until
this year when He jolted me awake. I’ve
felt like a sleeping virgin and just now listened
to the trumpet call. I keep having thoughts that He
might have given up on me and revoked my calling
because I have been so involved in the things of
the world these last few years.
If God feels
that I have been unfaithful to Him and has revoked
His decision in choosing me to be a 'son' in the
144,000 that are to help the others here on Earth
in the last days, then the least I could do to
'repent' is to die for Him in the great
tribulation. I've always felt in my heart
that I would die for Him without hesitation.
If I were living in the times of Moses and were
asked to meet God on the mountain, I wouldn't have
even paused to breathe. It would have been
done without thought. The only thing I’m
convinced of is that if I’m left behind with the
other believers and have to go through the ‘great
tribulation’ then I’m ready to die for Him. I
always have been….
(For those of
you who didn’t get to read Leland Earls ‘Three
Comings of Christ’ here again is the link. It explains
about the 'chosen ones' and their role in
the 'great tribulation'. It’s
pretty long, so save it in your favorites and read
it a little at a time in order to absorb it.)
http://www.firstloveministry.com/Earls/booklets/three_comings/3com-entire.htm
Please pray that Dad will
reveal to me whether or not He has changed His
mind and has chosen someone else in my
place. I'm so very discouraged these
days....
Thank you!
Robin MacAhan
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