For me it’s an easy answer. Some find it
hard seems like that brother or sister the best way to just
get rid of the problem is to just not talk to them. For the
1st time I had someone say that to me. See my
problem is I tell my self what I am doing is trying to help.
At times they can be talking about some guy and how evil he
is and they will never pray for him and they don’t have to
for God understands. So me thinking.. pffft I have the
answer .. make more problems then helping. One I have 3
emails and if you use Outlook their all right there. Never
ever use them to deceive anyone. But now I can see how
someone would think that. So you tell them the best way you
know how if your wrong in any way forgive me. As a Christian
I always think that’s a wonderful thing to say if you really
mean it.
I am like anyone else.. yet I forget that
I don’t like being told I am wrong yet I do it to others.
You may not want to forgive someone and you may be right in
doing so. But things are not always what they look like.
Whats so easy to some is very hard for someone else. Seems
my heart never gets heard only my mouth. Some people in this
life try so hard what comes so easy for you.. that’s in
making friends. For some odd or strange reason I can push
someone away faster then making friends.
So to ‘V” and anyone else.. the reason we
have to forgive our brother and I am not talking about some
sin and look the other way. I am talking about offend and
the like. Our Father has to.. has no choice but has to keep
His word. So if we don’t forgive He wont. It just keeps the
path so to speak open so the enemy can not take hold.
Again what would look so simple to
someone .. to anther (ME) is blind to. How do you just let
it go? How do you just say nothing? I put my heart on my
sleeve. I know the word.. I have Faith to move
anything.. I don’t know how to just talk and make friends.
Its not even easy to speak here. Trust me. I never share my
problems with anyone..ever.
You do this so long you know that if you
can push all away.. that thought haunts you that you have
pushed Him away. You know to .just let it go who cares.. but
why can’t you? What ever why not.. Lived with a pastor
and his family just after collage when they moved to Calf..
they asked. The lord told me I would go with them before
they new they would be going and before they asked me.
His wife would always tell me “your like sand paper”. Told
me Mary (my wife) had to be an angel to be married to me.
Then 25 years later..see we lost track of each other and I
tried to find them and I did. The paster (dad we called him)
oh was so happy to hear from me. I get on the phone to his
wife and she says.. “you know Mary must have been an angel
to still be married to you”.
So what the big deal? See growing up all
my dad ever said was how awful I was a loser and so on. At
15 the day before Christmas he said I will grow up and be a
bum all my life. When he got mad he used a board. I at 24
get married to some one that was and is the world to me. Who
for 15+ years did nothing but call me names and tell me how
bad I was.
In anything it always takes two. Jesus
found me very young. I do love Him. All my life I live by..
what if it was me what would I do..what would I want. In a
marriage I would want someone to no matter how good or bad I
was never give up on me. See my wife when she was very very
young .. her uncle did things to her. So this anger at me..
if I was her I would want someone to love me and always be
there. So 30 some odd years later we are still here. But my
problem is still the same. The ones I try to help I
push away. One thinks I deceived her with different emails
and it sure looked that way. I never saw that.
So would you be so kind to pray for me.
Not looking for .. ooh poor me garbage. But like a pastor
once wrote in my bible.. Danny needs others. And guys.. I
really need you.
So as in getting saved you walk infront
of all .. if zeblade or thevsm has ever said or done
anything.. I am ..forgive me.