Watcher Woman and Patti C
I am so grateful for your encouraging words and I appreciate
you both very much! You know that quip that goes "I have
been rich and I have been poor and rich is better..."? Well
I feel like I can say I have been involved in negative
exchanges and positive and positive is way better!
Thank you Watcher Woman, it means tons!
I should clarify Patti, the ranch I worked was 54 acres and
the few animals it had were some boarded horses that others
were responsible for and the occasional time that the
neighbor's cows got through a fence but my responsibilities
were mostly maintenance of the property including lots of
mowing, watering, weeding, fence upkeep and pool and pond
and well maintenance and trees etc. a total of 9 years or
so. As I referred to it mostly "yard work" but nevertheless
we still have a lot in common, I think. I'm so glad we could
get past our initial bumps to find our similarities and
I just had a lengthy conversation with my wife and sister in
law long distance on the phone (wife visiting there this
week) about the same dilemma of my talents seeming to be not
used to their potential. How every time I thought there was
an opportunity to do something and I put it before God to
make sure that I was not doing it on my own without His
leading, it always fizzled into nothing until I end up
wondering if I blew it or what...
I think of Moses and how he went from wanting to be the
"deliverer" to running away and being just a shepherd for 40
years. Then God calling to him from the burning bush and
that strange part about how when God saw that Moses turned
aside and looked at the bush with interest then God called
1. Now Moses kept the flock of Jethro his father
in law, the priest of Midian: and he led the flock to the
backside of the desert, and came to the mountain of God,
even to Horeb.
2. And the angel of the Lord appeared unto him
in a flame of fire out of the midst of a bush: and he
looked, and, behold, the bush burned with fire, and the bush
was not consumed.
3. And Moses said, I will now turn aside, and
see this great sight, why the bush is not burnt.
4. And when the Lord saw that he turned aside to
see, God called unto him out of the midst of the bush, and
said, Moses, Moses. And he said, Here am I.
It makes you wonder what would have happened had Moses not
shown that initial interest or whatever. Reminds me of that
time in the New Testament when Jesus was walking on the
water and would have passed the disciples in the boat but
they called out to Him and so he stopped.
47. And when even was come, the ship was in the
midst of the sea, and he alone on the land.
48. And he saw them toiling in rowing; for the
wind was contrary unto them: and about the fourth watch of
the night he cometh unto them, walking upon the sea, and
would have passed by them.
49. But when they saw him walking upon the sea,
they supposed it had been a spirit, and cried out:
50. For they all saw him, and were troubled. And
immediately he talked with them, and saith unto them, Be of
good cheer: it is I; be not afraid.
51. And he went up unto them into the ship; and
the wind ceased: and they were sore amazed in themselves
beyond measure, and wondered.
It is hard to figure just how much we ourselves contribute
to our destiny and how much is up to God.
My biggest fear is that He Will say to me at the judgment
that I didn't use my talents, all because I was overly
afraid of going ahead of Him. When I was playing in my
secular rock band it was all my own way so when I left that
I was determined to not get involved in anything that was
not of Him. So I ended up doing not much. Sometimes
wondering if the burning bush was back there a ways but I
failed to "turn aside" and lost the chance. If Moses would
have kept on going would God have burned another bush in
Moses' path further on, or would that have been it and he
One other hugely contributing factor in all this has been my
constant expectancy that the rapture was next Tuesday anyway
so no need to make long term plans... Anyone else relate? I
actually blew a once in a lifetime opportunity because of
this very thing. It was back in 1987 and due to teaching on
the Great Pyramid I was convinced that the rapture was just
days away from this night when I attended a concert by Jeff
Fenholdt at a local church. He asked me afterward as we
talked if I wrote music and that he wanted to put together a
"rock opera" based on Isaiah 53 "Who hath believed our
report" and foolishly, I said no even though I did have
something I had written on exactly that! Ouch! But that is
how convinced I was that the rapture was about to happen so
I didn't even tell him about my songs that I was working on
for just such a project.
Anyway I appreciate you both and all the Doves!