Suzi (25 Sep
The last few days I've been marveling at
the beauty of the Full Moon and how any day could be 'the day'. On Weds
night, my daughter and I got to go to the premiere of the Disney movie
"You Again" with Betty White. We joked that seeing her in person was
another check mark on our 'bucket list'. I believe Jesus loves to give
us even the little trivial/mundane desires of our hearts. Me sharing a
fun time with my daughter, walking a red carpet and watching a movie
with some of the celebrities we like was just such a 'fun outing'.
Driving back from the LA area (we live just South of Fresno), in the
middle of the night, we were in awe at how bright it was outside, the
moon was casting shadows!
I remind my family nearly everyday that 'it could be any day now'.
Why then am I asking for prayer?
husband left to go to a work related 3 day weekend (he trains the
Sheriff's Explorer Post and they are having a competition). As soon as
he left, I felt a spirit of fear, foreboding (hearing noises around the
house, even had the dogs doing the 'someone is here' barking). As
bright as the moon had been, the yard was very dark...I kept thinking
my daughter was home, but it was always 'nothing'. *even now, as I type
this, the computer keeps freezing up*. I also came under a spirit of
'vice', and can't get some images out of mind. I am praying, and after
reading the post about Communion, I think I am going to set aside a
special Prayer Time with my daughter tonight. I just felt a weakness of
Spirit, and was on edge, fearful and weak in so many ways last night. I
didn't want to be alone. My daughter had made plans with friends to go
out (they sit down at the all night Denny's and visit over sodas and
breakfast specials). When she came home to bring me some soup (I was
sick to my stomach all day, and had had 'night terrors' earlier in the
morning before finally waking up), I really wanted her to stay home,
but they were all going to go to a married friends' house to play video
games (she's 22, and this is how she usually spends her 'out' time). I
asked that she not be out too late, since I was alone.
like that as soon as I am 'on my own', I can fall so quickly...preyed
on by the enemy. After all these years, he still knows how to 'push my
So please friends, pray for me, my family and for all
of us, I'm sure I can't be the only one to feel this kind of attack. I
think the enemy knows all our weaknesses, and will go for the jugular
on each of us.
Thank you, and hope to be meeting all of you soon.