Robert - My heart went out to you tonight as I read your post. Brother, I prayed for you, and the Lord heard my prayers. Your faith will be strengthened -- you must trust this. He is not only the AUTHOR of your faith, but He is the FINISHER! He will see you through this one way or the other.
Please take a moment and read Pslam 91. Trust every word. Cling to Jesus. He is your hope that you love and trust in without seeing. Be thankful in this trial, because through this, your faith will be perfected. This is His plan for you. Praise Him and thank Him for this trial, because He knows what you need when you need it and will act as He desires and the perfect time.
Our lives here are merely a preparation for our glorious enternity with Him. Soon it will all be over, and we will be perfected with Him. You will look back to this experience and see how it all fit into His plan.
I believe you will be strenghened and sustained, and God will provide for you and your family. He promised that He would do this; you are His beloved child and He will not leave you nor forsake you in any way,
With the Love of Christ,
Your sister from Texas