My life has been very hectic in the last month or so,  God has been working a
healing process into my life that amazes me.   I haven't had time to read much
here at 5 doves but the thought of our imminent rapture always makes dealing
with the hard things in life so much more simple.
   As some of you know, a year ago I was "given" a divorce by my
husband of 30 years.  With him receiving several hits to the head in the last
20 years and his constant need for medication, the different paths he had been
holding onto in his life from mine became evident and he decided that a
severance of our unity was the only way to remain sane.  Shortly after the
horrible time leading up to the divorce I prayed to the Lord in earnest to
bring healing to my body, soul, emotions, spirit..........so that I could
someday be ready to be of support to someone who could be of like mind as I in
regards to faith in the author of life not only to the spirit but the
transforming power delivered to us by the Holy Spirit that causes a death bound
soul to become alive to Christ and his attributes.  My brother shared CD's on
healing with me this summer from Katie Sousa and Tom Fenn which I was able to
receive because of God's faithfulness to answer my prayer of last fall.  I knew
He would answer that prayer but had know idea what the answer would look like
because of where I was at in life.  I also started reading a book of Decree's
by Patricia King that take all the promises of God, divides them into
categories and puts them all in the first person so as  you read, you are
declaring to God that you are accepting those promises and the blessings that
go with them not only for yourself, but for your family, your business
activities, your sphere of influence.......  What a transforming truth it was
for me to not only read but to accept them for myself as actual truth meant for
NOW not for the future when I had become worthy enough for God to bestow them.
  And then, 2 months ago God cause a guy who has been a constant encouragement
to me in the Lord with his weekly 5-10 minute visits to Costco where I work, to
ask me out.   I dragged my feet the whole way because there were still so many
emotional scars from the past.  But as our friendship developed those
"soul wound" or hurts would surface one by one, and then at home I
would bring them before the Lord and His power has changed those wounds into
not only spots of healing but they have now become stronghold for the Lord.
Once where I would twinge with hurt, I can see where the hurt was, but it no
longer has the power to shut me down emotionally, physically and spiritually.
It now has become a place of rejoicing because I can say that there is true
healing from the Lord through the power of regeneration all caused through the
effects of the Holy Spirit changing ones life.  I have done nothing to change
except to see where the changes needed to be done and bringing them before the
Lord. God's words have transformed me and accepting his blessings has enabled
Him to give me those blessing.  Which to my utter amazement will  also bringing
about my marriage to a man who is actively seeking that his life be a place
that God's glory can be seen through acts of kindness, compassion,
encouragement, giving of the gospel and loving me.  Wow.
   So marriage plans now on the eve of our departure.  YES, because it has
allowed me to glory in God's goodness to me, it has allowed me to share this
praise with you and to encourage each of you that God truly wants you to live,
not just exist in this life waiting for His sending of His son.  If not for Rob
in my life right now, I would not know the depths of God's love because I have
not known or experienced it here on this earth before.  Now I not only feel the
constant of love from a man, but the most profound love coming to me from God
not only to be received by me, but given away to Rob as well.   What an amazing
experience.  What an amazing God.