All right...I am back on  the wall, after a really damp, mucus filled time with the Lord (that sounds so much more interesting than "I cried a while", doesn't it it? LOL)  Thank you for acknowledging my earier incident...it has been so painful to walk thru.
  I guess I am feeling...vulnerable.  After the attack on my family, it was like Job....the flood of pain has almost drowned me..but I know the Lord is near.  Due to the horror of killing that man, and almost losing my girls, I lost 50 lbs or so just from sheer terror which flooded every waking moment (oh well, one plus-husband says I look great!)
  The mans drug dealer freinds have been stalking my girls, and calling with treats to kill them.  Had to hire two body guards, notify schools.  Due to the physical fight with this man, herniated three discs in neck (he repeatedly punched face).  Had neck surgery in march.  Blood pressure became unmanagable (150/130), had a heart attack and heart surgery on month ago.  Now, I have to travel to NY for more surgery, leaving my two girls behind for five days....my 17 yr old has to watch 11 yr. old.  Have terrible fear of an attack occuring, terrorist, something-and with marshall law, wouldn't be able to get home to them...drilled my daughters on emergency proceedures of survival.  I am supposed to leave in 2 hours...and jet blue just called.  My flight home was CANCELLED!!! Due to price increase in fuel, they had to cut half their flights!!!  I am shaking....I CAN'T be away from them any longer, leaving them unprotected.  Please pray...I have to get home...they are naked without me.  HELP!!! I am under HEAVY  ATTACK here.  Heart pounding...and at 46, I don't want to depend on nitro to keep heart healthy.  Feels so black...Tracydee
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Doves,
Read this old post: http://www.fivedoves.com/letters/aug2006/tracyd816.htm
John