Dear John and Doves,Recently I contacted Peggy for prayer and now I am asking that all the Doves will lift my family up in prayer. Below is a request for prayer and I would ask the same of my brothers and sisters in Christ here on the Doves. It’s a rather lengthy email but I ask for those of you who love Christ to please read it. Thank you John for all the work you do here on fivedoves my mother and I have garnered much strength from it over the years.
Your sister in Christ,
Kristy
Dear ___,
I’ve been receiving your email alerts for about two years now and they have always been a blessing to me. I appreciate all the long hours and hard work you put into your group daily it’s a blessing from God. My name is Kristy and I would like to tell you a little about myself so that you will understand why I’m in dire need of spiritual intervention. I was saved when I was 9 yrs old. My mother and grandparents were raised to love the Lord God and Jesus was always a daily part of my life when I was younger. I loved Jesus all my life I was taught Jesus loves me when I started talking. My life as a child was a dark, painful and turbulent one however as many are. I was sexually, mentally and emotionally abused by my stepfather for over 10 yrs, and my mother turned a blind eye to the abuse. When I was 14 I was placed in state custody and my stepfather went to jail for over two yrs. During this time I was returned home to my mother and grandmother and left to deal with the abuse and shame on my own. My mother didn’t believe that I was telling the truth and choose to stay with my stepfather during his time in prison. My grandmother whom I had always felt close with didn’t reach out to me either and I felt completely alone. During my teen years I became overly sexually active due to insecurities with my weight and desertion I felt from the people I loved most. I started using drugs, drinking and basically went into self destruct mode. I dabbled into the occult not severely but enough to be oppressed by demons. At the age of 17 I met a guy in jail through friends and we were married while he was in prison when I was 22 and waited for him to get out of prison for 6 years. The marriage was the biggest mistake of my life because almost immediately after his release he started doing heavy drugs, stealing, beating me and having affairs. I must mention that during his incarceration I had an affair with a friends brother and became pregnant and had a son. This is one of the biggest reasons he was so cruel to me after his release. After a few months I started doing drugs with him and I had to give my son to my mother to take care of because I couldn’t take care of myself. We were on complete self destruct mode stealing, drinking, drugging and living or I should say dying quickly. Now I must tell you as I said earlier I was saved when I was 9 I always loved Jesus and more than once in my life I’ve had spiritual experiences always through people but God always let me know he loved me and was there. This didn’t change during the time I was with my husband. We were together a total of a year or so on the street before we got locked up and went to prison. I ended up doing almost 2yrs and he is still incarcerated to this day. We were arrested in February of 97 so he’s done 10 yrs so far and isn’t eligible to be released until 2012. I haven’t seen him in 5 yrs and I no longer am in love with him nor wish to be with him. I met a man 5 yrs ago and we fell in love immediately. I moved in with him and still live with him to this day. I desperately want a divorce from my first husband but our financial situation hasn’t allowed for this. I know what the bible says about divorce and I’m tortured in my soul daily for living with and loving the man I’m with now but in my heart he is my husband. Over the years my mother and I rebuilt our relationship and in the years since 911 we have grown especially close. My mother and grandmother deeply believed and followed end time prophecies and always warned me of the end times. Even though I believed it to be true I honestly didn’t believe it would happen in my lifetime that is until September 11, 2001. Something about that day told my spirit that things had changed and I’ve followed the prophecies every since then .My grandmother went to be with Jesus just 3 weeks after 911 and we miss her desperately. She loved the Lord like no one I have ever known and was our rock and strength she raised us daily up to the Lord in prayer. In 2003 my mother started getting sick and in 2004 was diagnosed with terminal leukemia, and she became extremely sick and almost died several times. There were many Christians praying for her to recover and for God to use her to bring her children back to God. In mid 2006 she was declared in remission and our family was ecstatic that she was healed and many of us knew God had healed her. However in late 2006 she became paranoid and didn’t seem herself and is now diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and has a difficult time knowing reality from her delusions. I tell you about my mother because she was my buddy my fellow watchman on the wall. Daily we would share your emails among many others and talk about the things that were coming on the earth and would try to reach out to our family who refuse to believe in Jesus or that we’re in the end of times. We prayed for each other and helped the other stay strong in these perilous times. Now I feel completely alone without her. I have no one to talk to about all the things I see coming, no one to fellowship with and no one to pray for me either. I’m afraid because I have sin in my life. I’ve repented so many times in my life I don’t think or believe that God wants to hear from me anymore but I love him desperately. I am weak in my flesh I always have been but I love Jesus with all of my heart. For reasons that I can’t understand I can’t overcome my afflictions my addictions and I feel like God has given up on me . I’m afraid because I don’t want to go to hell I want to spend eternity with Christ and my loved ones in New Jerusalem forever. I desperately need prayer from my brothers and sisters in Christ that God will work in my life and give me assurance and help with all the issues, scars and bitterness that I carry in my soul. I know a lot of people will say to just repent and turn from my ways to seek God and things will get better but I’ve tried that as I said before I am weak and need for other Christians to please pray for me, my mother, my family. We have a very troubled family but my son who is now 12 accepted Jesus last yr and my partner I call him my husband because in my heart he is believes in Jesus and loves him too but has problems and addictions of his own. I ask for you and whomever reads this to please not judge or flame me for I am baring my heart to you in hopes that you will lift me and my family up before God and pray for his mercies on my family. I didn’t intend for this to be so long and trust me it could be a book if I continued but I felt like I needed to give you a brief summary of who I am and where I have been so that you can understand my plight. I love Jesus and I don’t want to be left behind in the rapture. I like all of you watch daily and I know Christ return is imminent. Thank you all who took the time to read this and lift us up in your prayers. God Bless you all.
Your sister in Christ Jesus.
Kristy