Deborah,
Join the crowd. A lot of people are going through similar turmoil's in their  life.
I bought a van two years ago. Every day, I praised Jesus for the wonderful van that He
had given to me. Oh! I thank you Jesus.
Then all of a sudden it blew a head gasket. It happened just a week after I had had
it fully serviced. I always think that nothing happens by accident, so I praised Jesus
for the blown head gasket. I told the Lord that I was putting the van into his hands.
I am still making payments on it, and still am not able to drive it. It is just sitting
on the street next to the curb.
If I tried to sell it, I couldn't get more than $200 dollars for it.
Insurance payments are coming in, and still I don't have a van that is driveable.
It is very frustrating to say the least.  If I could get rid of the van then I could use the
money for other things.
So, you are not alone in your problems. The devil is working over time.
Make sure you are still giving the Lord your tithe. Do not neglect this, no
matter how hard time come.
Susan