Video clip re
history of Constantine. How accurate.........? Who knows. It
gives a glimpse as to how humanity has been deceived and played
by satan. Forgive me Father God, but it makes me so angry. I
feel like a deceived wife. Drawn into this tunnel of deception,
betrayal, lies, murder, war.........horror. I read the history
of both World wars and find it horrifying. This watchman job is
making me neurotic. The more I delve and observe, the more
rotten and revolting stuff is revealed. URRRGGH. Like digging to
the smelly end of one's compost heap. It's becoming more
difficult to retain equilibrium.
soon, LORD Jesus. We are struggling. It's getting beyond our job
description. Perhaps I speak for myself, LORD and others have
more strength and perseverance. We have seen J.R. Church pass on
22nd March 2011 - 11 days after the Japan earthquake and
tsunami. Just prior to that we had the pale green horse film
footage in Egypt and the stunning light descending on the Temple
Mount . What does it all mean? Where is it leading? We are
groping in the dark- reaching out for clues like blind men.
Arguing with each other - as gently as possible. When all
we want to do is scream at the injustice of it all. How long
until You come and make it all better? How much further horror
do we have to observe? I know Job had to go through way more
harrowing stuff. I know the Jewish people were starved and
butchered during the holocaust. I know the Apostle Peter was
crucified upside down and that Stephen was stoned to death. I
know that there are worse things than sitting and waiting - as
we are. But still, I beg of You to come soon. I have not lost
one ounce of my faith - but am so sad. Why do you tarry?
I love you
LORD. I miss you.
Scripture was Modified- Secret of Secrets