Steve, thank you so much for sharing that beautiful testimony. I find myself in the same place as you - that as I get closer to Jesus, the more I can see my own sin, and the more I can see what I would be capable of apart from the grace of our God. That's a blessing in itself, because it keeps me from ever feeling "proud" of what a good person I am, and keeps me from judging others too harshly....well, I should say that when I DO feel proud of myself, or judge others too harshly, the Holy Spirit is faithful to remind me of where I've come from, and where I'd be without Him.
I don't want to presume on God's grace, so I try (sometimes unsuccessfully, I admit) to allow God to minister to me in my broken places on a daily basis, so that, as Paul said, I won't be disqualified for the prize. I'm no theologian, but I figure it's better to live a life a seeking after His righteousness than to "rest on my laurels" that I'm saved by grace and don't have to make an effort to draw closer to the Lord.
I long, long, long for His appearing, and want to be ready when He calls us home - the sooner, the better!
Thanks again. Your story is so powerful and it blessed me today.