Kamie (8 Oct 2010)
"suicide note, a dream and more"


 
Dear Doves,
Although not a regular writer, I am a regular reader and appreciate all of your
input and wisdom. I wanted to share a few different things of late that have
happened.

The most rescent is from today. I have always struggled with witnessing. I used
to work for Campus Crusade for Christ and one of my first
"assignments" was to
witness at a College Campus. Pretty surprising since I thought I took a job as a

secretary at the time. Anyway, to put it bluntly, witnessing has been on the
same vain as getting my teeth filled for me. I've always struggled with it.
However, I feel such a sense of urgency lately and have so many non-Christian
friends that today I sent out an email to my friends with a link to Gina's
website - the world is shaking. In my email I talked about my concern for my
friends and appreciation of them. I also talked about all the craziness in the
world and how disaster upon disaster is mounting. I sent the email and the first

reponse I received was from a friend who thought I was sending out a suicide
note. I think I'm hitting my head against a brick wall sometimes but I'm trying.

God give me courage and stength please!!

OK - lots of different things to talk about in this email because I've actually
sent an email to this site before but for some reason it did not transmit. Hmmm.

Dream: My latest dream which I would appreciate some help interpretting is as
follows (I have my own ideas what it means but would appreciate yours).
I was at the beach on a sunny day and the beach was full of people suntanning
and enjoying the day. I was there with my two nieces (both adults). We had put
our towels and personal things down and were walking down the beach towards the
concession stand I think. All of a sudden there was a loud warning horn that
went off to alert us to get off the beach. My nieces immediately ran towards the

towels to get our belongings before panic broke out. I followed behind and as we

reached the towels we noticed a building close by and all ran towards the
building for safety. There was an announcement that everyone needed to leave the

beach immediately. However, very few were going anywhere and there was no panic
apparent. We ran into the house, expecting it to be full, but there were only a
few chldren inside. There was a patio door open with some adults on the patio
(close to safety but not willing to come in). I told them we had to shut the
door and they laughed. As I was shutting the door I heard a horrible sound and
realized it was a pack of coyotes that were in the water, swimming towards the
beach. That is what the panic was about. As the coyotes approached I saw a man
with a long trench coat - looked like a street person - very unkempt. He had a
way of calling to the coyotes to calm them and everyone believed he could
"handle it" so they were not afraid. We (my nieces and I) were
terrified. Then I
woke up.

OK - finally I have to make a comment on the dates set. I am so inspired by
John, Ron, Bruce, Daniel, Firecharger and others who have opened my eyes and
given me so much hope. My only comment is that it is obvious that we are aware
that the rapture is at the door. I think the fact that there are various dates
set and strong reasons for each of them given that it leads to the "you
will not
know the day or hour" position. I have read Daniel Matson's book (though
way
over my head) I appreciate his wisdom. My brain is not a math brain but I
can follow the gist. I just think it's interesting that the "wathcmen"
have
different dates, although they are all within a very short period of time.  Hmmm

- don't know the day or hour.

FInally, we have been encouarged to share our testimonies (part of the reason
for my first paragraph). Here's mine in brief. I was raised in a strong
Christian home, though had no freedom to not follow. I rebelled (that covers
about 10 years  - maybe 15). I ended up in what i called "stubborn
obedience". I
believed in God but had no emotional connection to him. I ended up making a
decision that cost me my career and pride. I continue to be ashamed of my
choice. However, because of it I ended up face to floor. I lived in the pit that

I dug until I realized that Jesus was in the pit with me - willing to help me
out (have you every tried to climb out of a slimy pit on your own???). Long,
long, long, story short - I lost almost everything but you know what - I gained
Jesus. I am more in love today than ever with Jesus and am so very thankful that

he rescued me from my own worst enemy, me.

The triangle - ok, this one is kinda wierd. I was at a Church camp with my son
this last weekend. During the night (we were in a cabin) I woke up and there was

a triangle flashing on the ceiling. I kept staring at it trying to figure out
where it was coming from and thinking there must be something outside that is
shining in. I got up and noticed that inside my overnight case was my cell phone

and it's battery was drained. It was flashing - however, it's never flashed
anything that big or that shape before (come on - it's a tiny cell and this was
a huge traingle). Hmmmm....

OK, last comment (sorry ended up being long winded tonight). Thank you all!!
Thank you especially to firecharger who always makes me giggle while giving me
such a message of hope and understanding  - uuuuuuutubers. Loved the sheep.   
Also, thank you to Daniel who manages to not get discouraged but keeps on
trusting Jesus. You inspire me!! Also to John with such a tenderness for Jesus
and an amazing gift to see the numbers. Ron and Bruce and Suzi and Gina for your

continued input and wisdom. See you in Heaven!!

Kamie