That was a good letter. It seems that you do have the wasting disease by your description. It was a very good letter and hopefully will bring others to think more seriously. But you know of course you are forgiven. Because I work in the hospital I often wonder what my response would be to the things I see happening to people. I say to myself that I would not pursue these extra lengths people go to to try and prolong their life. But you see, not being in the situation can be deceiving. Once you yourself are in it your perspective may change. I hope we will all meet soon. If not some will meet sooner then others. We forget it is not how long we live our life it is how we have lived, like the song says. Samson has done a lot better then most of us in uplifting others  so I think he smells pretty good to the Lord right now. Kind of like the sweet incense scripture.