Hi Doves!
I know, I know, I know you all are going to get in my face
& tell me to go to E.R. now! But unless I just
HAVE to, then there are several reasons I need to put this on hold for a few
days.
I've got all the classic symptoms of appendicitis.
I've had it all day now -- actually, started coming on last night.
Yes, yes, yes I know that I can wait too long & it can
burst. But also -- I know that God is a GOD OF HEALING and can grant
my request to at least let me go a few more days OR to even heal me without
surgery. It is my prayer that He will! ~ or to AT LEAST let me go for
a few more days before going to the hospital.
There are several reasons I'm scared of surgery.
Mainly above all, it's the HORRIBLE "MCS" ~ {the "multiple chemical
sensitivity"} that scares me and I can even die when going under the
knife. (it's not the knife itself -- it's all the CHEMICALS used in
anesthesia & for pain killers, etc!!) I am not merely
"bothered" by chemicals, but deathly allergic to some.
I've often said I wouldn't mind going on to heaven before
the rapture -- however, what I hate most of all is to leave my husband
(& even our dog) behind. He'll make it thru' okay, but
should I be called on ahead -- will you guys PLEASE keep my husband in
prayer??
AND......
/sigh ~
to top everything else off, as you know, we've had a difficult,
difficult year -- our finances have bottomed out, and if I have to have major
surgery, this will just push us over the edge..... quite possibly even into
bankruptcy ~ though that would be a last resort.
Our insurance STINKS!! It's a health savings
account, where you end up paying for everything yourself.
We're in such straights already & now this..... sigh!!
No life ins. on me should I die; and stinky health insurance
should I live.
So, yes, I am *worried* ~ but also trying to hold on to
FAITH!!!
Thanks for prayers!! And if you have a special
Scripture to offer comfort, I'd certainly be open to it.
50 years from now -- this will all be PAST HISTORY!!!!!
Can't wait! Maranatha!
Reva