My deepest sympathies to you. I hope that you will be
here for the rapture and that it will be soon. The Lord
knows best and if he feels your time would be better spent
in heaven preparing for your millennial role then so be
it. But I really think we are ALL going home so soon that
there isn’t time to die only time to live. May we meet
face to face soon in our glorious new bodies.
many of us on our "last legs""
Lots of requests for prayers the
past weeks. Most asking prayer for very
Me too. I hesitate to ask, because I am
now resigned more or less to "me" being over.
It's been a while since I REALLY hoped to make
it to the Rapture, although I have prayed
for it for all of us here, and for all who love
The final situation seems to be this: I
was going to Mayo clinic to have radiation
suppress my bone marrow. But I was
hesitant. However I had all my plans made,
plane, hotel, etc.
The nurse of the Radiation Oncologist called two
days before I was to leave and asked me
to get a CBC, another blood test, and have it
faxed. I had it in Santa Fe at the
office because I didn't have time to get one in
the other direction where I usually have these
tests, in Los Alamos. I was too busy
getting ready and conserving energy.
I knew there had been an inaccurate test at the
hematologist's office two months earlier,
with a new machine they installed when they got
new management of their in-house lab.
But I guess I sort of thought they must have
fixed it. It had showed a low reading at
previous time, which would have been good if it
was true, of my platelets.
So this time I thought it would give an accurate
reading. But they had not fixed it, and
again the reading was too low to be real.
But that test went to Mayo, and my hematologist,
who doesn't like p32 (radioactive phosphorus)
urged me to cancel the trip. I did,
had to do it at once or lose money on the p32
(Medicare pays only if you show up, and they
have to order it special). It's a lot of
money, too, almost all my savings.
Today I had another routine test at the local
lab. My eyes are still bothering me so I
expected it would be "high". It was,
highest ever, so I tried to reset the trip to
But the radiation oncologist would not allow me
to come unless the hematologist
approved. And the hematologist wouldn't.
So this looks like a death sentence or more
likely a sentence of blindness and/or stroke.
I can't take chemo. I tried seven times
Many have prayed for me. I thank those of
you on Doves who did pray. I probably
be able to use the internet much more, as the
screen bothers my eyes, and I have to save
what little sight I have left. But I will
pray for you and trust you will for me too, even
pray for the Lord to take me home quickly,
because I feel degraded by this useless
Bless you all. See you sometime up there.