I am sure many others have read your request and prayers are going up! A couple of things that I know of, from personal experience, which might be of help to you in the physical (while waiting for the prayers to be answered,of course!): Suntheanine, which can calm you without making you feel "out of it" and also acupuncture specifically for anxiety (try to find a Christian acupuncturist, if you can (or at least someone who is professional and just about the business - not into pushing the oriental philosophy). You can also go to a good health food store and talk to someone knowledgeable because there are other supplements that may work for your situation. God bless you!