It is such a sign of the evil in which I live that my son would agree
with Yoko Ono that a movie  like Expelled should be censored, removed. 
My son considers all religion evil;  well, we know that some religion
IS evil.  But he does not consider that the Creator exists, and he
thinks that his young sons should be protected from believing in God. 
When they get to be l7 or l8 years old they can consider whether to
believe in God, he says, but for now he will protect them from this
thing which has brought such grief to mankind.

Sometimes I can stand the pain of this, knowing God may bring people
like him, and his sons, to faith at any moment.
Sometimes I cannot stand it, for it is the biggest evil in my life, and
I can do nothing about it except pray, and the prayers have gone on a
long time.

I can only hope God is merciful.

Why did not God provide me a way in which to raise him to believe in
God?  I was thwarted at every turn in my attempts to take him to
church, for I lived with my parents after a divorce, and I was not
well, and had to go out to work.  Even pastors of churches I took him
to, like the one I took him to for baptism, arranged it so that  the
baptism would not happen.  Or the Sunday school was not good--not
filled with the Holy Spirit.   These same grandparents of his were my
parents, and they ridiculed me for having a Bible MY grandma gave me,
so that I had to hide it.  I cannot understand why God let the Devil
have his way.

Pardon the rant, Doves.  I feel weak and helpless today, unable to try
to make things right.  In His power, things could become right, but He
has not shown His hand here.  We live in evil here in the place where
the bomb was created, Los Alamos, where even my son works as a
scientist.  It is all evil, the mechanism of war.

I hear Chuck Baldwin wants us to leave Iraq, although he wants a strong
national defense and safe borders.  He is running on the Constitution
Party.  He supports the ideas of Ron Paul.  I am going to vote for him
if we last that long, until November.

We should all be for getting out of Iraq, for it was and is not a just
war.  Fighting the terrorists should have been done a better way.  This
seems personal to me, for my whole family lives here where the United
States created the atomic bomb.