As many of you know, Sunday May 15 was one of the possible rapture dates. So of course I couldn't help thinking about it. My husband was worship leading in church, and the presence of the Holy Spirit was just so wonderful.

As I was sitting there in the church, I looked up at the very high ceiling. I pictured myself floating up towards it, and wondered what that must be like. I thought of how I would look down and see so many people still sitting in their seats, and it was not a good feeling. What would it be like to see their terrified faces, and will they be screaming, "Lord, Lord! Take me too!" But He doesn't.

Then I wondered at my own worthiness. As usual, I began praying that the Lord would find me worthy when He comes back.

But the thing is, I started thinking about the dumbest things!! It's almost embarrassing. I was thinking about the fact that my Bible and my purse would still be sitting on the chair. And then I was wondering what my new body would feel like. And can ANYONE imagine what it'll be like to look upon the face of the man that was brutally killed to save a bunch such as us? I don't know how I'm going to feel when I see Him.

I want to see Him more than anything, but at the same time, I'm almost afraid of seeing a look on His face that tells me I messed up and didn't love Him enough or share Him enough. How much of what I did in this fleshly body is going to be burned up with the rubble? What have I done to make a difference to the kingdom of God? I'm searching for something worthwhile that I've done.....FOR HIM.

Does anyone else think about these things?

 
Linda Vegh
Rapture Watch Forum