Sometimes I chuckle watching you guys go back and forth the way I do...it could be in five minutes....but you still have ordinary lives and responsibilities.  I have struggled with that for years myself...and still do today.  Watching my 21yr. Old daughter...in pre-med, trying to balance that....and my 15 yr old prolympic swim trials.....and 5 hrs. Daily training......and as she always groans.."six on saturday".....trying to explain that two sided life for them to grasp is frustrating.  It is even made harder when they are aware it is a daily struggle for dedicated watchers, too.  T he best way I ever heard it explained was years ago...can't recall where.  The teacher said that "to abide"  in the Hebrew isn't exactly the same as in English.  English sound like abide is a sitting still thing.  In Hebrew...it is more of a verb...an action word.  It involves activity, planning, work, and time passing.  As my smart, ever-logical daughter once dryly noted...it sounds a lot more like schizophrenia...and that's the best definition, really.  Multiple personalities....one half that is growing old, planning, living and dying....the other scanning the skies anxiously.  Well, it helps me to function being in the world, but not OF it.  Just hot it might assist someone out there, too!   Tracy Dee