Cathy,
I was deeply
moved by your post. I admire your strength. I am 27 and have
been married for 8 years and my husband is also a Catholic.
He doesn’t really follow the religion or anything for that
matter he doesn’t go to services. Although, when I do
comment on anything regarding Jesus or the rapture he will
quickly defend the Catholic Church. He says he has his own
personal relationship with God. I truly found God in 2010
and I realized that he was always there but he was trying to
get my attention and he sure did. I was Saved, Baptized and
attended Church regularly. I changed completely and My
husband didn’t really like my change. I invited him to
church countless time and he always refused. Finally he told
me to never again ask him. Soon after I think Jesus
permitted me to become a light in his eyes. He started to go
to church …. Catholic Church which was to me ok because I
got him to at least seek God some way.. he eventually
stopped going and I did notice that as time went on after I
got out of the army I drifted away from God to…We sent our
kids to Oklahoma to stay with his mom while we made plans to
pack up and move to Oklahoma and buy a house. We partied and
went on road trips and to the casinos and to the bars to
dance you name it.. It was like honeymoon all over again…and
I left God and for a very long time.
My Husband is going through a Medical
Board to get out of the Army and he was depressed because he
loves being an Infantry man and fighting for our Country..
and wanted me to stay in Texas with him until his decision
had been made because he did not want to be left alone. So
we postponed the move and I stayed for him but after all the
partying I began to feel ashamed and felt like a bad
mother.. I missed my kids… I was torn between him and my
Children.. they would call and ask me when I was coming to
be with them and I would cry because I needed them and I
wanted to be with them.. but I wanted to be with him too.
While my sadness grew I turned back and even closer to God
because I didn’t know what to do… stay with him or go to
Oklahoma with my children. Then, I had a Rapture dream, in
Early October or Late September of 2011. It didn’t hit
me then that this was God purposely trying to get my
attention.. I told my Husband I needed and wanted to be with
the kids.. So I left to go to Oklahoma to be with them.. I
left October 7th 2011 and have fallen and God has
always been there to pick me right back up. It has still
been 6 months and my husband still has not got word
back regarding his Medical decision but while fasting the
other day before the feast Purim.. I felt so strongly in my
heart that this was how it was going to be.. for some reason
(because I am so unworthy of the Lord and his graces) he refuses
to give up on me.. every time I turned astray he was tapping
me on the shoulder telling me to return to him ( and I am
tearing up now writing this) but, He sent me here to
Oklahoma because in the midst of my husband I am blinded I
turn away from God and turn to the world.. I remember the
very first day I was saved my Pastor was in deep prayer for
me and he said he received a word from the lord that moment
and it was to tell me to Put my blinders on ( like a horse
wears.. directed on that one specific path) God sent me
here to Oklahoma to be with my children and to prepare
for the Rapture so I can focus only on him… my husband since
then has changed he is still in Texas waiting from word from
the VA.. God has a Specific plan for you! Cathy!! J Through all
these years you proved your strength and devotion to the All
Mighty Jesus! You will be very blessed.. I
believe in the lords word and I know you pray for your
husband and I pray for mine too that he also may be
accounted worthy but I hold on to this scripture..
For
the unbelieving husband is sanctified by the wife, and the
unbelieving wife is sanctified by the husband: else were your
children unclean; but now are they holy.
Keep
Looking up my dear for the Lord is surely soon to come!! God
Bless You and John TNG and all of the Doves and our Loved ones!!