"Mary Anna, Vicki and Doves"
Hi John and Doves,
Mary Anna - thank you for the beautiful poetry. Utterly beautiful. I
don't go to church because I am very wary of the hypocrisy that sneaks
in. It was prevalent in our church in Zimbabwe and I just don't want to
be disappointed like that again. I have a good bunch of friends and a
wonderful, loving family. However, even if most are believers, they do
think I'm a little too engrossed with Bible prophecy. It is a very
lonely thing - being a watchman. I am extremely aware that the LORD has
led me to the unfolding of prophecy, so I couldn't change my way of
thinking - even if I wanted to!! I do have doubts, sometimes. Doubts
about my own feelings or attempts at interpretation. The LORD always
picks me up and provides me with new insight and my enthusiasm is
bolstered anew. I would love to talk to my beloved family and friends
about these things but they aren't really that interested. As I said,
they are believers but they are certainly not watchmen. Often, I'll
tell them something of great import - thinking that it'll blow their
socks off and I get a reaction of "Okay, wow" and that's it!!!
Shreeeeek - so frustrating. Haha. I used to get upset about it (inside)
but I have learned to accept that some people are called to it and
others not. I tend to keep a lot of stuff to myself now. My family and
friends always call me when they are alarmed at something (the
Christchurch earthquake put the cat firmly amongst the pigeons) so I
believe that I am the appointed watchman for my immediate circle. The
LORD also sent me to the Dove website so that I can fellowship with all
of you wonderful, like-minded people. I have a great bunch of people
that are all watchmen! Hooray!
Vicki - I also giggle at my feeble maths calculations. Often, I'll be
on to something really good and my brain decides "enough is enough" and
I lose the thread completely. I'll turn back to my scribblings (on
various bits of paper) and think "WHAT!!! - what was I trying to work
out there? - where did those numbers come from???" I do thoroughly
enjoy it though. I have a strong feeling that our LORD laughs with me!
I keep you all in my prayers. Can I ask that you do the same for me? I
have a problem but it's nothing compared to the problems I read about
on Doves. Still, it's a problem to me. Please pray that the LORD will
enable me to sort it out?
Thank you Doves.