I feel exactly the same way as you do! I am 70-years-old and this is NOT the same country that I loved in my younger years, but I do believe that it is ALL in God's end-time plan. The following Scriptures are for you and me and ALL Christians:
"He who loves his life will lose it, and HE WHO HATES HIS LIFE IN THIS WORLD will will keep it for eternal life."
"And we know that ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD TO THOSE WHO LOVE GOD, to those who are the called according to His purpose."
Keep the faith, and keep looking up.
YBIC, Bruce Warner