My dearest doves,
Why was I surprised at your many answers to the emotional pain I have been going through regarding the man I met.
I was so pleased to read all your responses and to know that you are praying for me.  Emotional healing has begun!!  There have been no tears for a few days now and YES - I am starting to recognise his basic instability (he is a Christian by the way, but I fear a very muddled one).
Today, I sent him a final email entitled "Go - with God's blessings".  It was very short - I forgave him for the hurt he inflicted on me and said that I would be praying that God would bless him and his children with peace, joy and happiness - and I'm pleased to say that this is the truth.
I now know that only God can find the perfect Husband for me- and it may not be that I am meant to marry again.  I have fully accepted this - I've been reading the beautiful Psalms and feel so much better.
 
I must make a special message to Samson - how did you know I had been so very open and honest with him?  Perhaps too much so?  I don't recall saying that - but I was incredibly upfront, open and perfectly 100% honest with me from the beginning.  Thank you Samsom for such a beautiful reply.
 
God's richest blessings on you all,
Susan