I am a simple, uneducated person who delights in the secret things of God, as morsels of food for a king unexpectedly dropped onto my plate.  I struggled through your post yesterday, the first chapter of your book about food sacrificed to idols.  I am very confused about the end part where you say that we are misinformed about the rapture, and it will not be anything like the left behind series.  You discuss how we would burn up to ashes (in a manner of speaking) if we were not prepared ahead of time to see God, and, if I understand you correctly, to do that we will have to spend time in the "outer darkness" to aclimate ourselves to seeing our Lord.  If we are talking about the same outer darkness, it is a place where the bible says there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth:a fearful, terrible lonely place.  That seems to me as though you are saying we will have to go there to earn our salvation, like a purgetory before heaven.  I am sure that is NOT what you mean, so can you help me understand better?  Am I supposed to start DREADING the coming of the rapture because I will have to endure this awful place first?  I am so confused!  I feel about ready to cry....I desperately LONG for His coming to take me home; am I wrong to want it?  Am I supposed to be afraid of His coming, knowing what I will have to endure?  This has made me feel dreadfully confused and upset.  I want Him to come this second;  am I wrong?  How bad will it be?  Where in the bible does it say I must endure something FIRST, before I can run to His arms?  How long is this "season"?  Will it be different for everyone?  Does that mean the wedding will be delayed until we have all 'been made ready'?  PLEASE clear this up for me; I NEED to understand what I may be missing here!  Tracy