Amen, amen, and amen, dear sister Dawn!  I couldn’t have said it better myself!  That’s like when people tell me, “Life’s a ____, and then you die.”!  Ouch, hurt ME!!!  I tell them that’s not a bad option at all… I’ll finally get some much needed rest!  As for not “reaching” enough people for him... it’s like my youngest son (who’s 27), who tells me you need to say this or that to this person or that person… look, Chris, when the HS wants me to say something to someone, He puts the words in my mouth, and when He wants me to be silent, he shuts my big fat mouth!  :)  And that’s the truth!  Not everyone responds to the same type of witnessing.  Some respond better if you befriend them first, then show them the love of God in your life.  That’s usually my mode of witnessing, and apparently the Lord likes that way, or He would change it within me.  I can’t do it on my own anyway… it’s only through His Spirit that I’m able to witness at all!  As for being scared of pain… again, I’m just like you!  people ask me if I’m scared to die… heck NO, I’m not scared to die, but I’m reticent about the MODE of death.  :)  I’ll be honest with you… I could do without ever being tortured!  It’s not my idea of a fun time!  And also like you, I’m oh, so ready to go Home!!!
 

Love from your sister in Yahshua!

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