Dear Ellen
 
I am so sorry for your loss.  I frequently read the Doves and do not recall a single prayer request or a request for financial support.
Had I been aware, surely I would have joined you in prayer...
 
Alas, an allotment of days and time is given to every man!  The Lord knows our way and where and why our life will expire.  The spirit in Christ, knows not the full weight of death.  For Christ found victory over it at The Cross.  Yet in our mortal frailty, we instinctually/subconsciously know within our own hearts and minds that death was not meant for us.  Death is a foreign subject because we were made in God's very image. We were never meant to die.  The unfairness of death leads one to mourn in sorrow.
 
BUT Christ rose from the grave...and death has NO sting!  Our dear friends who go before us, we shall embrace again, at our meeting in eternity!  For this, we rise up from the ashes and sing praise to our God!  No not just sing, but rejoice, rejoice Emmanuel HAS COME!
 
Where does your guilt come from?  You did you take Ms Lucrezia Perez from her mortal life.  Guilt is not from the Lord.  Guilt is used by the enemy to torment you.  I will pray with you that God lifts the burden of guilt.
 
Joanna
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