Gino (11 June 2017)
"RE: Fay: 06.04.17: Tribulation - Undeniable"


Fay,
Thank you for that link to the article that Matt Walsh wrote.
I so ashamedly agree with what he says about us here in the west.
A number of years back a group of us were street preaching in a club area of Chicago.
While one was preaching, I went back to get some more tracts, in the box we had in the alley.
In the alley, an extremely large man jumped in front of me.
He shouted at me that he was a muslim, and that he was ready to die for his god.
He shouted his question to me, are you ready to die for your God?
The fact that I'm writing this, years later, is proof that I did not die for my God that day.
He didn't ask me to deny Christ, or to accept his god allah.
I think he wanted me to physically fight him, fight to the death, to see whose god would win.
All I remember was that I was paralyzed with fear.
I simply stood there, not moving and not speaking.
After a while, he apparently realized that I was not going to fight him.
He left with disdain for the cowardly Christian who wasn't willing to die for his God.
I realize that we are not called to physical violence:

Ephesians 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.

I was not to be a gladiator for Jesus.
However, I cannot get over how terrorized I was that moment - that is what I'm ashamed of.
So, if someone was to put a gun to my head, and ask me to deny Jesus or die, would I be equally, or more terrorized?
Since that night, I realize that the real me is a coward.
So, without the empowering of the Holy Ghost, I do not stand a chance, not even a whisper.
Has the Holy Ghost emboldened me at times?
Yes, I was then able to do things for Jesus that the real me could absolutely not do.
Therefore, I best not be found walking in the flesh, if and when that moment ever comes for me.