Vivid Dream on June 22, 2013
I was seated in an enormous and crowded auditorium type room trying to listen to a speaker at the podium. The microphone was working, but I was struggling to hear each word and had to focus extra hard because all around me, in every direction were smaller groups of individuals talking to each other and not paying attention to the speaker. They were not whispering but just blathering to each other in normal voices. I was getting angrier and angrier and was just about to swear at them all and tell them to Shut UP when the Lord Jesus Christ was standing directly in front of me and said,
“ Natalie, I do not care about what other people do to you.” It shook me. Now, I just knew-in-my- knower that what he meant by this statement was that he did not care because they could not ever really hurt me or get to me , ( in the spirit ) the real me, because he would not let them and because he was with me….. He was upset with me for not really believing this all the time, and in every situation. He was like, see, I’m here, I’m right in front of you in your face, and I am more important than anything happening on that stage or being said via microphone right now.
He continued, “I only care about what you do to other people.” Again, I knew-in-my-knower, or it was divinely imparted to be in dream state fashion that what he meant was, You and only you will stand before me and give an account for your life, not their lives, but your life. That is all that matters to me concerning you.
I protested, “But Lord, they are at fault. They are being rude and what if I don’t use curse words, can I still tell them to shut up?” His facial expression became one of patient exasperation, like worn by parents of toddlers.
“You can wear yourself out and tell them but they will not hear you, because they don’t know who they are.” He was very sad for them.
I knew-in-my-knower in the dream that what he meant was that it would be permissible for me to do, but not recommended because it would be a waste of my time and not bare any fruit. They will physically hear your complaint, but because they do not know me in their spirit, because they do not know who they are in Christ, in me, they will not understand it, or get it, or care, or know they were created for better than what they are doing. I would not raise them to act that way. I would bring them up higher and raise them better than that but because they do not have ears to hear, they will not change their behavior.
I also knew that Jesus was getting right in my face, calling me by name and telling me to stop complaining, and having pity parties, and getting angry about what other people do to me, even to stop thinking about all it together because in the end, it just does not matter. The end is so very near and it is past time to put away all anger, wrath, and complaining. The only thing that matters is how I treat and act towards other people. He was sad for me too. It was like, when are my children, when are my kids really going to get this and live this in every little situation and event and day? Do you not know that even if someone kills you, the physical you, your spirit will live forever and your spirit will be safe with the Lord, Jesus Christ?
I woke up, feeling all sorts of things but mainly encouraged to start trusting the Lord more in every situation, no matter how big or small. He is trying to raise us all up better in him!