I wanted to look back on my encounters with Jesus Christ relating to my own salvation experience and see if it meant anything on the Jewish Calendar.  

I got a new job on 7/3/1998 and met Jesus for the first time on 7/12/1998.   I saw Him as a huge being of light.   He had diamonds and jewels sparkling in His gown, His head was turned away from me but His robe was long and swayed in the wind so beautifully.   He had enormous wings that seemed like they could wrap themselves around me.   I was in a place of extreme darkness in my vision and there was a huge wooden carved door that no man could open, yet this being (I knew it was Jesus) opened it so easily.   All the people in this dark room in hell fell to their face automatically to worship Him even in the midst of the torment.   Yesterday I found this testimony of a woman who actually was in hell and LOOK at the door in the photo.  It is the SAME DOOR I saw Jesus open for me.  

http://www.spiritlessons.com/dreams_and_visions/Aline_Baxley_I_walked_in_Hell.pdf

So anyways I looked on the www.chabad.org calendar and realized that Jesus came and met me and got me out of hell on the Feast of Tammuz 1998.  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seventeenth_of_Tammuz   He was telling me that like the Jews, I must fast and repent of my gross sins since I was living in darkness and if I died, I would go to hell.

As an American Christian, I believed the lie of the devil that once you convert that you always have your salvation.   After a year of living a holy life upon meeting Jesus, I fell back into gross, gross sins.   Then Jesus had to visit me yet again as a roaring lion with eyes of fire on 11/26/2004 which was Kislev 13 the date that the Talmud was completed.   Does it mean that I must repent because the end of days were completing?

Jesus always has a confirmation of your visits with Him and dreams and visions in other ways.   You can backtrack the dates and see the significance of them.    

I will tell all of you this, the year of 1998 after meeting Jesus for the first time and turning from my sin was the most blissful, happiest, joyous time I HAVE EVER FELT IN MY LIFE.   No amount of alcohol, money, beauty, or whatever I was seeking compared to the feeling I had.   Even though I went back into sin and repented and now am living a life of a watcher and working hard to live holy........it is a BIG MISTAKE to go back into sin once you meet Jesus.   While you may be forgiven, there is a grief that is always lingering in the back of your heart and the bliss that was once there, well it comes in momentarily during worship but is not the same.   Please, if you are saved and born again, do not fall back into sin because not only will you go on the road to hell, if you are able to ever get back to Jesus the road is very rocky and painful.

Most days I feel very convicted and in grief.   Yes I know I am truly born again now, but I had walked away from my first love like Jesus warned to the churches in the Book of Revelation.   I feel as though I must make up for turning my back on Jesus after knowing Him and I wish I would have known then what I know now.